Thursday, December 23, 2004

Flirting and Teasing

If Mari has flirting signals and Cerridwen has flirting in a relationship, this one is flirting online. It's fun to flirt especially when the person you're flirting with knows how to respond and respond well.

Predator> do u need a gardener?
BaBae38> depends
BaBae38> what kind of garden are you talking about?
Predator> oh...all kinds
Predator> im handy
BaBae38> you're in hawaii
BaBae38> you would charge in $$$
BaBae38> cant afford you
Predator> it's free
BaBae38> really?
Predator> i just need some snacks
BaBae38> sure
Predator> and drinks i guess
BaBae38> hahahaha of course
BaBae38> my garden is special
BaBae38> it hasn't been watered in a long time
Predator> i will tend to it well
Predator> i will make sure it stays fresh
BaBae38> would you cut the weeds?
Predator> if u prefer
BaBae38> water my flower? plant your seed?
BaBae38> is your hose long?
Predator> hmm...about 7 inch long
Predator> but fat
BaBae38> that's not bad
BaBae38> most of the hoses i've seen are are a lot shorter than that
Predator> but it can gush like a geyser when handled properly
BaBae38> that's why my garden's been dry for a long time
Predator> i can make ur garden lush in no time
BaBae38> you might wreck my garden! hhahahha
Predator> ekk
Predator> hehehe...i doubt it
Predator> im gentle
BaBae38> at 7? that's big... to me at least
Predator> well then we can try half
BaBae38> see? my garden is small
BaBae38> can you be gentle?
Predator> of course
Predator> im sure ull have tears in ur eyes by the time we're done
BaBae38> really now?
BaBae38> can you guarantee that?
Predator> nope
BaBae38> aaww
Predator> it can happen though
Predator> ill just tend ur garden
BaBae38> hahahahaha
BaBae38> pull out the weeds
Predator> shave it all off
Predator> mow it down
BaBae38> ¤ Ha Ha Ha ¤
Predator> do an awesome landscape


Something like this can be stimulating and of course, fun! This reminds me of my friend and her European lover. One time he was on his way home and while driving he caller her.

Euro: I'm driving home right now.
Aya: What kind of a car do you have?
Euro: I have a Volvo.
Aya: You have a Volvo but I have a VULVA.

And they both cracked up then had phonesex later. Hehehe.
Humor and intelligence can be sexy. It's really all in the mind.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Jealousy: Intense Love or Insecurity?

It's finally over. He can't take her incessant nagging and jealous fits any longer. He just walked out on her and she's now lost, not knowing what to do.
I remember last year he kept telling me, "Hindi ko na kaya, hindi ko na kaya." I was thinking he wanted to tell someone that he is having an affair. Yun pala hindi na niya kaya ang ugali ng asawa niya. There were times he would motion me not to speak or not to say certain things, paano ina-nag na naman pala sya about it. He spends a lot of money on overseascalls to her but everytime he calls she nags her about some insignificant detail. Nakakasawa nga talaga. He bought her a PC so they could chat but she still nags him about something or the other. She even questioned the time he chatted with me, my mom and a cousin, HELLURR??? We are his family!!! How can she question that?? Duh!!!
I know how it feels to have a partner who is terribly seloso. A few years ago I had a BF wanted to control my life, pati nickname ko gustong palitan. I relented just to keep the peace but he didn't stop there. Even my emails he wanted to know who were the people on my email list. And I can't go out if he doesn't approve of the people I'm supposed to go out with. For a time I tried to understand him because he was in the US and I was here in the Philippines. I was in a long distance relationship so in my heart I had to make the necessary adjustments to make it work. But I got tired of giving in to his unreasonable demands. Inspite of the fact that he made the rules, he also broke them and when I pointed this out to him he called me controlling. "F*ck you!" I told him, and that was the end of my suffering.
I know how it feels to love someone yet hate him and dread the time you talk to him. I remember feeling nanggigigil whenever we chat because I knew something was going to be raised that would cause us to fight. Natuto pa nga ako mag lie just so we wouldn't fight anymore. Kaya lang even if I was able to pull if off I always had this feeling he would know about it and it scared me. It's either we fight, which is stressful, or I lie to him, which also causes me stress. Either way talo ako, so I quit. It hurt but it felt better having peace of mind.
Why was my ex seloso? Well he was insecure. He has this superiority complex to cover up his insecurities. He thinks he's smart and wise and all that and he did everything to put me down. If he believes in himself so much then why is he still insecure? The thing is he doesn't, he knows he is still inferior.
Why is she selosa? Because she is insecure. I don't know why but compared to him, mas nakakalamang siya. She has trust issues. She ask Nanay, "Masama ba ang magselos?" If I had heard this I would have told her, "Ate, at 43(or 44) hindi na cute yan, nakakinis na! Kung 19 ka tapos selosa ka siguro puwede pang palagpasin ang pagseselos pero sa edad mong yan dapat mature ka na."
Don't get me wrong, I do have my insecurities and I do get jealous at times but not to the point of losing a loved one. Besides, why would I show anyone my insecurites, baka i-exploit pa nila! Hehehe. Cute din ang mild selos, it makes you feel wanted or desired by your partner. But just like anything else, too much can kill you or your relationship for that matter.
Bottom line: jealousy, insecurity and lack of trust, these things show the level of maturity a person has when it comes to a relationship. Unfortunately, maturity doesn't come with age nor intelligence.


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Update on my friend.
She's not giving up on her BF no matter what but she talked to me and she knows how bad I really feel for her. I felt bad that I reprimanded her ahd said hurtful words to her. We talked again later that day and she understands how I feel. I apologized to her for being so tough on her. She said she can take anything I tell her because she knows I care for her. I told her I would rather not hear anything about her relationship right now because it affects me to see her do this to herself.
She knows that what she's doing is pathetic but she's resigned to this. Nothing I can do anymore for her.



Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I'm Disappointed!

I can't believe how some people, especially women, allow others to walk all over them. I have a dear friend who lets her BF treat her like shit. She tried to break up with him pero siya rin ang nagmamakaawang bumalik, with matching apologies pa! Ilang beses na syang niloko, pinaglararuan at sinabihang ayaw na sya at ilang beses na nakipag break sa kanya, she would still ask him back! Where is your self esteem?!?!
Hindi ko napigilan sarili ko to say nasty words to her, paano para syang tanga!! I've gone through being tanga for love but she breaks every known record for katangahan! ARGH! Natatawa pa sya when she said nahihiya sya sa sarili nya then I told her wala ka naman hiya sa sarili mo kasi wala lang self respect. At ang gaga umoo! Punyeta talaga. Hehehe.
Some people have no sense of self worth. I've been through bad relationships but I knew when it was time to leave. I'm a very giving, loving and patient partner but I know when too much is too much. Maybe this is the reason why I'm still single, I won't settle for less, I won't let a man walk all over me.
Hay buhay!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Test of your brain capacity

Imagine you walked into a small hut by the river in the jungle. You pushed
open the door; in front of you there are 7 small beds to the right of the hut, and another 7 small chairs surrounding a small round table. In the middle of the table is a round food tray with 5 kinds of fruit in it.

Here are the choices:
a. apple
b. banana
c. strawberry
d. peach
e. orange

Which fruit will u choose?
Imagine the situation and just give it a thought...
Your choice reveals a lot of things about you!
Please scroll down!!!
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Test results:
a. If you chose apple:
that means you are a person who loves to eat apple

b. If you chose banana:
that means you are a person who loves to eat banana

c. If you chose strawberry:
that means you are a person who loves to eat strawberry

d. If you chose peach:
that means you are a person who loves to eat peach

e. If you chose orange:
that means you are a person who loves to eat orange

Kakainis ano? Forward mo ito para makaganti ka!! Personally--gusto kong katayin yun gumawa nito...



Tuesday, December 07, 2004

I Can Let Go Now

by Michael McDonald

It was so right, it was so wrong
Almost at the same time
The pain and ache a heart can take
No one really knows

When the memories cling and keep you there
Till you no longer care
And you can let go now

It's wrong for me to cling to you
Somehow I just needed time
From what was to be-it's not like me
To hold somebody down

But I was tossed high by love
I almost never came down
Only to land here
Where love's no longer found
Where I'm no longer bound
And I can let go now

Friday, December 03, 2004

Lights, Camera, Relationship!

I'm not surprised his relationship is on the rocks. It was already rocky to start with. Imagine wala pa silang 1 month they were already bickering?! Wow! Wala na akong bilib sa kanya noon pa. A week after we started talking with him I could sense he is weak. If you are a man, you should not be going around talking about your relationship problems to all your friends, esp to us who do are practically strangers to your partner. It doesn't look nice, hindi gentleman ang ganon. If you need to talk then talk to someone you can trust, someone who can be neutral and could tell you your mistakes. Even when my ex and I were still a couple, I never talked to my friends about our problems, not even to my family. When we broke up they felt bad because they though I lost one great guy. It's not right that he looks bad to others when he cant even defend himself to them. This was before I knew about his kalokohan ok? Hehehe.
Still, when you are in a relationship, you don't go around saying the negative things about your partner to people who are close to you. They will have a different perception of your partner and when the time comes that you have to introduce your partner to your friends, iba na tingin nila sa kanya. Hindi mo na puwedeng bawiin yon, iba na tingin nila sa partner mo, kawawa naman siya.
All relationships have problems, no single relationship is perfect, no one is perfect. Just think if your BF was talking how immature you are to his friends, syempre they will take his side. They will think you really are immature diba? Yun pala you are like that because he is an asshole as a BF but not as a friend. Still ikaw ang masisira. Don pa lang, na turn off na ako sa kanya. I wanted to point this out to him but... I decided it's best not to meddle with someone's life. Matanda na sila, alam na nila ang tama at mali. Baka sabihin pakialamera pa ako. Hehehe.

If he is unhappy with her, then why is he still in that relationship?

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thanksgiving

Inspite all the things that has happened to me, I consider myself lucky and blessed. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food on the table. I'm healthy and I have a functioning brain.
37 years. God has been good to me. I can't deny the blessings that have come my way. Even if I try to stop worshipping Him or even thinking about Him, still He protects me and showers me with His blessings.
I'm grateful for my parents and my siblings and my nephews and nieces. I'm grateful for having my family and relatives. I'm thankful that I am who I am after all that I've been through. I'm thankful for having my friends, the kind of friends that I have. I'm richly blessed!


7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, [1] you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

Psalm 139 7-10

Monday, November 29, 2004

A Letter to the One that God has Prepared for Me


I got this from a bulletin board of a chat site. I wonder if some of the single bloggers feel this way...

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other.
Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person...and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!
You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes.
I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.
At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.
And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait.
And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!!!
In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.


Thursday, November 25, 2004

Apples and Wine

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten applesfrom the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Share this with other women who are good apples, even those who have already been picked!

Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

An Ode

To appreciate the essence of this poem, read this out aloud...



Last Fog Sea In Die

Thing none knew see in die
Who bought who bad
The hill key none taught see in die
Last fog see in die.

Fog must done knew see who one
Thin knee tea gas sun
Cash sea see in die
Who bought who bad
Bull ball money peace.

In knee love bus knee who one
Dean act money in die
Key knee league see who one
The hill be not tea knee in die
Knee love as son see who one
Be thin see in die!

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

An Illussion


Tell me how many faces do you see in this pic? Post your answers and I'll tell you something interesting tomorrow.
Posted by Hello

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Are Women Smarter Than Men?

It's obvious that women are smarter than men, think about it! Diamonds are a girl's bestfriend; man's best friend is a dog!

Friday, November 12, 2004

From Meet Joe Black

"I know it's a cornball thing, but love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what areyou going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart... Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because the truth is, there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived... Stay open. Who knows? Lightning could strike."

My sentiments exactly! Take the risk! You only live once. Love with passion, not with purpose.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Really Strange!

Strange talaga itong nangyayari sa akin na ito!
Yesterday I changed the battery, I switched between two batteries thinking it was the positoning of my clock that's causing it to stop. Kaso kahit anong kalikot ko sa clock ko at anong palit ko sa battery wala talaga. I gave up on it.
Early this morning I tried to fix my wall clock, tripr lang. I removed the battery and took the other one and it worked! The hands are moving again!
A few minutes ago I looked for my dressy watch so I could put it somewhere safe. Pucha, my watch is working ulit! Syet! Ano ba ito? I'm getting worried here.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

My Workstation


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Originally uploaded by fionski.

I have a cubicle w/ windows. The cool air coming from the aircon barely reaches my corner of our office kaya mainit, the heat from the windows makes matters worse! Walang internet PC ko tapos ang bagl-bagal pa! Di na ako bored lagi, inaantok lang! Waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!

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Yesterday before I left the house I noticed the watch that my Mom gave me stopped moving. I guess it needs a new battery. I still have 2 watches left, one is the cheap Divisoria watch while the other one is a dress-up watch. I brought the Divisoria watch because I wasn't so sure it was safe to bring the other one. This morning while I was preparing to leave I noticed my wall clock stopped! That to me was odd because it was working when I woke up. I tried to fix my wall clock, changed the batter and even fixed the way it was hanging on the wall. Nothing! It's really dead. Anyway, I decided I would use my dress-up watch to work because my Divi watch looked really cheap with the bad watch bracelet on. Around midday, I noticed the time on my dress-up watched stopped too! I tried to fix it but it wouldn't work. My cousin bought it for me only this September so the battery should still be ok. Is this weird or what? I felt like I was in the twilight zone!

Ilocano's, when they hear a lizard making that "knocking" sound or saltik as we call it, we would knock on any wooden surface and say someone is arriving. To me whenever I would hear that, it would mean someone is arriving, for the past 2 years the saltik to me mean someone's going to show up online soon. G, remember that time I asked you about the lizard? I was already hearing the lizards' saltik, I wanted to tell you about it that's why I asked if you've seen a lizard before. I had a strong feeling HE would show up. He did show up! Diba G? I heard the strongest saltik last week of May and I thought to myself if things were ok he would probably show himself to me. He did show up, June 2.

Call me superstitious but there are certain signs that I believe in that people would brush off as coincidence, while some would try to link these signs w/ some scientific explanation. I'm thinking maybe the clocks/watches stopping was a sign. I wonder what this time stopping means (aside from the fact that I need to buy new batteries for my watches)? Bad omen? I hope not!

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Women and their Asses

Here are the stats on a study that show how women feel about their asses:

  • 85% think their asses are too big
  • 10% think their asses are too little
  • 5% say they don't care, they love him, he's a good man, they would have married him anyway.


Saturday, November 06, 2004

20 Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level of Insanity

An orgmate sent this to me. This article made me laugh.

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.

2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.

3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with That.

4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In."

5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone Has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso.

6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Sexual Favors."

7. Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With The Prophecy."

8. Dont use any punctuation

9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.

10. Ask People What Sex They Are. Laugh Hysterically After They Answer.

11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."

12. Sing Along At The Opera.

13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme.

14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play Tropical Sounds Al Day.

15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You're Not In The Mood.

16. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Hard.

17. When The Money Comes Out Of The ATM, Scream "I Won!, I Won!"

18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking Lot, Yelling Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!"

19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, "Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go."

And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity.......

20. Send This Message To Someone To Make Them Smile...It's Called Therapy...

Thursday, November 04, 2004

I must! I must!

I find Gracey's blog amusing, esp her pampalaki post. It's about this penile enlargement gadget. The gadget itself looks like an instrument you would find in a torture chamber!
Her entry reminded me of my dear friend M. When I first met him, he unabashedly told me all about his lovelife. After a few more meetings he started telling me his sexcapades. He casually mentioned that while he was in UK, he bought this penis pump. Sabi nya lumaki daw ng 1/4 inch ang birdie niya. I asked him how big his birdie is, he said it's 6. I told him that his birdie is bigger than the average Pinoy twit-twit. According an article in one of Dr. Margie Holmes' book ang average South East Asian twit-twit ay 3 to 4 inches. Uyyy... Sino kaya sa mga nakakabasa ng blog ko ngayon ang namumutla? Hehehe.
Anyway, M said naliliitan pa sya sa 6 inches so he bought that pump. It worked naman daw kaso once he stopped eventually it went back to its original size. This was his story to me 3 years ago.
A few months ago, I saw him at the gym. Mega work out ang bruha kasi he wants to prove something to his ex-lover. He's been taking all these supplements make him grow taller and to increase the size of his penis. Huh? Lalaki pa ba yon after 30 years and with the use of supplements? He said it's not just supplements that can make it bigger, there are exercises he has to do. Since he is a nurse he has knowledge of these things so wala naman sigurong problema. I asked him what these supplements are kasi sabi ko it might come in handy, ayaw naman ibigay kasi hindi naman daw ako boy. End of discussion na kami kasi ayaw naman niya ibigay ang secret formula. Besides wala pa naman daw results.
Last night he called me. Nagtataray ang bruha, feeling niya mahaba ang hair niya kasi lumaki na raw ang birdie niya! It's now 7 inches long. Owws? Totoo? He said he should know if it's bigger not or not since he's been aware of it's size since college, disappointed nga siya sa 6. I should have asked him to show his thingy to me noh? Sabay take ng picpic for posterity, mga before and after pics. Hehehe. He said that he wants to reach the 8 inch mark. Take note: 8 inches. Sabi niya it has grown na raw kasi alam naman niya ang size non. I guess he measures it everyday. He also said that his sex drive and stamina have increased. Before he leaves for the US, pagkinulit daw sya ng ex-lover niya papayag daw sya kahit sex lang just to show off his schlong to his ex at isasampal daw nya ito sa kanya. Hahahaha!
Uy! I should get that secret formula and the exercise! I could make money out of it! Bwahahahaha!

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Triangle of Life

I got this email from an orgmate, Christopher Pedrezuela. This could be helpful.

Excerpt from Doug Copp's article "TRIANGLE OF LIFE"
Edited by Larry Linn for MAA Safety Committee brief on 4/13/04


My name is Doug Copp. I am the Rescue Chief and Disaster Manager of the American Rescue Team International (ARTI), the world's most experienced rescue team. The information in this article will save lives in an earthquake.
I have crawled inside 875 collapsed buildings, worked with rescue teams from 60 countries, founded rescue teams in several countries, and I am a member of many rescue teams from many countries. I was the United Nations expert in Disaster Mitigation for two years. I have worked at every major disaster in the world since 1985, except for simultaneous disasters.

In 1996, we made a film which proved my survival methodology to be correct. The Turkish Federal Government, City of Istanbul, University of Istanbul Case Productions and ARTI cooperated to film this practical, scientific test. We collapsed a school and a home with 20 mannequins inside. Ten mannequins did "duck and cover," and ten mannequins I used in my "triangle of life" survival method. After the simulated earthquake collapse we crawled through the rubble and entered the building to film and document the results.

The film, in which I practiced my survival techniques under directly observable, scientific conditions, relevant to building collapse, showed there would have been zero percent survival for those doing duck and cover.

There would likely have been 100 percent survivability for people using my method of the "triangle of life." This film has been seen by millions of viewers on television in Turkey and the rest of Europe, and it was seen in the USA, Canada and Latin America on the TV program "Real TV."

The first building I ever crawled inside of was a school in Mexico City during the 1985 earthquake. Every child was under their desk. Every child was crushed to the thickness of their bones. They could have survived by lying down next to their desks in the aisles. It was obscene, unnecessary and I wondered why the children were not in the aisles. I didn't at the time know that the children were told to hide under something.

Simply stated, when buildings collapse, the weight of the ceilings falling upon the objects or furniture inside crushes these objects, leaving a space or void next to them. This space is what I call the "triangle of life."

The larger the object, the stronger, the less it will compact. The less the object compacts, the larger the void, the greater the probability that the person who is using this void for safety will not be injured. The next time you watch collapsed buildings on television, count the "triangles" you see formed. They are everywhere. It is the most common shape, you will see, in a collapsed building. They are everywhere.

TEN TIPS FOR EARTHQUAKE SAFETY:

1) Most everyone who simply "ducks and covers" WHEN BUILDINGS COLLAPSE are crushed to death. People who get under objects, like desks or cars, are crushed.

2) Cats, dogs and babies often naturally curl up in the fetal position. You should too in an earthquake. It is a natural safety/survival instinct. You can survive in a smaller void. Get next to an object, next to a sofa, next to a large bulky object that will compress slightly but leave a void next to it.

3) Wooden buildings are the safest type of construction to be in during an earthquake. Wood is flexible and moves with the force of the earthquake. If the wooden building does collapse, large survival voids are created.
Also, the wooden building has less concentrated, crushing weight. Brick buildings will break into individual bricks. Bricks will cause many injuries but less squashed bodies than concrete slabs.

4) If you are in bed during the night and an earthquake occurs, simply roll off the bed. A safe void will exist around the bed. Hotels can achieve a much greater survival rate in earthquakes, simply by posting a sign on the back of the door of every room telling occupants to lie down on the floor, next to the bottom of the bed during an earthquake.

5) If an earthquake happens and you cannot easily escape by getting out the door or window, then lie down and curl up in the fetal position next to a sofa, or large chair.

6) Most everyone who gets under a doorway when buildings collapse is killed. How? If you stand under a doorway and the doorjamb falls forward or backward, you will be crushed by the ceiling above. If the doorjamb falls sideways, you will be cut in half by the doorway. In either case, you will be killed!

7) Never go to the stairs. The stairs have a different "moment of frequency" (they swing separately from the main part of the building). The stairs and remainder of the building continuously bump into each other until structural failure of the stairs takes place. The people who get on stairs before they fail are chopped up by the stair treads - horribly mutilated.
Even if the building doesn't collapse, stay away from the stairs. The stairs are a likely part of the building to be damaged. Even if the stairs are not collapsed by the earthquake, they may collapse later when overloaded by fleeing people. They should always be checked for safety, even when the rest of the building is not damaged.

8) Get near the outer walls of buildings or outside of them if possible. It is much better to be near the outside of the building rather than the interior. The farther inside you are from the outside perimeter of the building the greater the probability that your escape route will be blocked.

9) People inside of their vehicles are crushed when the road above falls in an earthquake and crushes their vehicles; which is exactly what happened with the slabs between the decks of the Nimitz Freeway. The victims of the San Francisco earthquake all stayed inside of their vehicles. They were all killed. They could have easily survived by getting out and sitting or lying next to their vehicles. Everyone killed would have survived if they had been able to get out of their cars and sit or lie next to them. All the crushed cars had voids 3 feet high next to them, except for the cars that had columns fall directly across them.

10) I discovered, while crawling inside of collapsed newspaper offices and other offices with a lot of paper, that paper does not compact. Large voids are found surrounding stacks of paper.

Spread the word and save someone's life...


http://www.amerrescue.org/

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Brain Freeze

"Brain Freeze" formerly known as "Sound Systema" is now revived. They're back!
They will be jamming with Crash Ambulance this comming Nov. 6, 2004 at 70's Bistro, Anonas Ave, near Aurora Blvd. Q.C. Show starts at 9 pm!

Yun lang.

Monday, November 01, 2004

Just a quote

No Man is worth a womans tears. The only one who is worth her tears is the one who knows he could but would never, ever make her cry.


"Women might be able to fake orgasms, but men can fake whole relationships "
- Sharon Stone


============ Bored Ako ============

I'm bored. I wish there was something for me to do other than sit and stare at my PC the whole day. People think just because I'm always at home I've got it easy. WRONG! I would rather be out there working, making money so I'd have something to spend. I want to be productive as in really productive! I am at home all the time because I don't have the means right now being in between jobs while I finish my degree. Sheesh! Hindi madali ang tumunganga buong maghapon sa loob ng kuwarto kong parang oven sa init sa tanghali hanggang late afternoon. Hay buhay!

Kung anu-ano tuloy ang naiisip kong gawin, kung anu-ano tuloy pumapasok sa utak ko. It's true that the devil finds work for idle hands(and minds) to do. It's hard to resist the kabulastugan that enters your mind when you are BORED.

Friday, October 29, 2004

Time to move on

Two years ago I "met" the sweetest, funniest, wittiest, smartest person online. He's very malambing, matalino and good looking. He had deep dimples and light brown eyes. His voice was very calm and soothing. I was attracted to him instantly. After 2 weeks and 3 days we became a couple. To me he was perfect. He fit the description of my ideal man, the one I've been praying for. I fell deeply inlove with him. Even my Mom loved him! They talked on the phone a few times before he left for the Middle East.
In my heart he was the one. He told me I was his life and that someday we would be together forever. Someday... It never happened, it will never happen...
He was living a lie, living a double life. I guess I was just his past time.
I do not regret loving him, giving him the love and attention I gave him. I would have given up everything for him, actually I did give up a lot of things for him. I had friends who got upset when spent more time with him than with them. Actually, I had more reasons not to go out with them and it's not just him but they would never understand me. I sacrificed a lot for him.
Unfortunately, he's so good at lying that he himself believes the lies he says, he lives and breathes his lies like they were true.
Do I regret loving him? No. Do I regret doing all those sacrifices for him? No. Was I stupid to have given him my love and trust? No. You get into a relationship giving your partner 100% trust, that's what I did. I didn't have any reason to doubt him, he was good to me and all I felt was love from him. I took the risk, it felt good for a while till I learned the truth. He broke my heart but he didn't break my spirit. I will not allow myself to wallow in self pity or think that I will never fall inlove again. It would be hard for me to get attracted to a new guy since he's my "benchmark" but I believe that I would meet someone worthy of my love. I value myself too much to allow myself to waste my life thinking about him.
It's our anniversary today, I forgot all about this event but my calendar sent me the announcement. I forgot to delete the announcement that reminded of the painful past, but it doesn't hurt as much anymore. I already got my closure. I'm doing fine.
Calendar reminder: Congratulations! You're finally moving on!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

A*&^%<$#=@+>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ang aga aga may dumating na buwisita. Someone whom I haven't seen in 2 years came here to make utang. Kapal niya ha! May atraso siya sa akin at Nanay ko. Kakuntsaba niya yung may ari ng lupang hinuhulugan ng Nanay ko. My Mom asked me to give Carol 5T para fully paid na ang lupa sa Quezon, 1T extra panggastos sa papeles and P500 for Carol. After she got the money, hindi na siya nagpakita. Yung asawa niya wala naman pakialam, he didn't even inform me na dumating na si Carol eh halos araw araw nakikita ko sya sa tapat bahay namin. I had to ask someone from their baranggay in Bulacan to talk to her. Carol said the owner of the land told her tumaas daw ang presyo ng lupa. WTF?!?! Apparently niloloko na nila ang Nanay ko. Di na ako nakialam. My Mom didn't bother me about this anymore because she knows this is her fault too. Matigas ulo niya eh.
Anyway, nangungutang si Carol sa akin ng pamasahe niya papunta ng Quezon kasi RAW makukuha na niya ang mana niya. Paki ko! I told her how can she expect me to help her when she didn't help me. She tried to reason out w/ me, gave me excuses but I just wanted to tell her that in 2 years she didn't even have the courtesy to tell me, to my face, that we are having problems with the ownership of that land? Kung wala siyang kasalanan hindi siya magtatago. She told me kinausap niya ang may ari ng lupa at kung ano ano pa sinabi nya don kasi naiipit daw siya. She came here daw to show my Auntie Mila the copy of the land. I told her wala na akong pakialam because it's not Auntie Mila who gave her the money, it was me so she should have talked to me. She tried to reason out, she even "threatened" me by saying isasangla na lang ang lupa so they could pay us. I wanted to tell her, "Tangina mo isaksak mo yang lupa na yan sa baga mo hindi ako maghahabol!" Akala niya siguro I'm that interested in the land! I want the money to be returned na lang. May pa punas punas pa sya sa mga mata nya wala naman tears sus! I was already quiet kasi hindi pa ako nakakapag kape at kumakain yun na ang sumalubong sa akin, umiinit na ulo ko, but she kept on talking and talking until finally napuno na ako I told her mainit na ulo ko kaya walk out na ako. Feeling ko hindi siya aalis at dadakdakan pa niya ako kaya mabuti na yung umalis na ako. Hehehe.

Pag akyat ko sa room ko I saw my cell, may message pala ako from someone I haven't heard from in months.

Friend: Mrng my byutipul frend, how r u?
Me: Day nagkamali ka yata ng send hehehe. Ok naman ako busy sa pag aaral. Musta ka?
Friend: Hehe, yaw mo sa byutipul?! M ok naman day bc din sa paghahanap ng kwarta
Me: Uy paputok! (this is her biz)
Friend: Hehe, bc ako kakahanap ng pera day at malaki ang mnthly ko sa new car. kumuha ako ng toyota vios, sold out na ang luma
Me: Hehe, bc ako kakahanap ng pera day at malaki ang mnthly ko sa new car. kumuha ako ng toyota vios, sold out na ang luma <= AH KAYA KA PALA NAGTXT BIGLA SA AKIN

Ewan ko lang kung na gets niya ibig kong sabihhin. I wanted to say KAYA KA NAGTXT SA AKIN PARA LANG SABIHIN MO MAY NEW CAR KA? Nyeta! This isn't the first time she had done this. Dati naman she texted me to ask me if I already know that Joe (a chatmate from Saudi) has arrived. I told her I had no idea because I don't chat anymore. Then she asked me if he has invited me to meet up w/ him. I said no. Then she said kasi raw siya sinabihan na magkita sila chuchuchuchu! THE?!(read as duh) Paki ko noh! She knows naman I don't chat anymore and I don't go to EB's anymore so what's her point in telling me this?! One time naman she texted me asking me if I could receive MMS, paano may camera na phone niya. Syet! Wala sigurong gustong makinig sa kanya pag nagpapasiklab siya. How very new rich! Para siya yung character ni Nova Villa sa Abangan ang Susunod na Kabanata. Hindi ko alam kung KSP siya o mayabang siya basta ako napupuno na ako sa mga taong ganyan!
Buwiset na Thursday morning oo!

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Pambihira!

Bad trip talaga! Ako pa sinisisi mali naman yung pinagsasabi sa akin! Sabi 1 and 1/4 lang ng tapes makukuha ko ngayon nakita ko almost 2 tapes pala ito! Punyeta! Hindi ko na lang sana tinanggap ito!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Ratratan na!

It's ratratan time! I have to finish 135 mins of taped interview of a group of people. Syet. Buti na lang di ko itra-translate na ito. Baka di na ako masinagan ng araw hanggang Wednesday! Huhuhu.
Sino kaya online ngayon? Hmmm...
Sino kaya yung cris_XX something na nagpa authorize sa akin sa Yahoo? Tanga ko naman kasi, I didn't even ask who he/she is. Tsk!
MommyBa sent me a picture, di ko muna tinitignan at baka hindi ko matapos itong trabaho ko. Hehehe.

Welcome to the World Jea!


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Originally uploaded by fionski.
This is Jea, my cousin Zoom's baby. She looks very much like her Daddy Johnny. Sarap ng may baby, ang bango-bango kahit nag-uu pa! Hmmmmmmm!


Juani's eyes, Zoomie's nose and mouth
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Originally uploaded by fionski.

Friday, October 22, 2004

Things My Mother Taught Me

I already posted this before but I'm sharing this again. This email never fails to make me smile. Thanks Liza G.!

My mother was a fanatic about public toilets. As a little girl, she'd bring me in the stall, teach me to wad up toilet paper and wipe the seat. Then, she'd carefully lay strips of toilet paper to cover the seat. Finally, she'd instruct, 'Never, never sit on a public toilet seat.' And she'd demonstrate 'The Stance,' which consisted of balancing over the toilet in a sitting position without actually letting any of your flesh make contact with the toilet seat. But by this time, I'd have gotten wet down my leg. And we'd go home. That was a long time ago. Even now in our more mature years, The Stance is excruciatingly difficult to maintain when one's bladder is especially full.

When you have to go to a public bathroom, you find a line of women that makes you think there's a half-price sale on Mel Gibson's underwear in there. So, you wait and smile politely at all the other ladies, also crossing their legs and smiling politely. And you finally get closer. You check for feet under the stall doors. Every one is occupied. Finally, a stall door opens and you dash, nearly knocking down the woman leaving the stall. You get in to find the door won't latch. It doesn't matter. You hang your purse on the door hook, yank down your pants and assume 'The Stance.'

Relief. More relief. Then your thighs begin to shake. You'd love to sit down but you certainly hadn't taken time to wipe the seat or lay toilet paper on it, so you hold 'The Stance' as your thighs experience a quake that would register an eight on the Richter scale. To take your mind off it, you reach for the toilet paper. The toilet paper dispenser is empty. Your thighs shake more.

You remember the tiny tissue that you blew your nose on-that's in your purse. It would have to do. You crumble it in the puffiest way possible. It is still smaller than your thumbnail.

Someone pushes open your stall door because the latch doesn't work and your purse whams you in the head.

"Occupied!" you scream as you reach out for the door, dropping your tissue in a puddle and falling backward, directly onto the toilet seat.

You get up quickly, but it's too late. Your bare bottom has made contact with all the germs and life forms on the bare seat because YOU never laid down toilet paper, not that there was any, even if you had enough time to. And your mother would be utterly ashamed of you if she knew, because her bare bottom never touched a public toilet seat because, frankly, 'You don't know what kind of diseases you could get.'

By this time, the automatic sensor on the back of the toilet is so confused that it flushes, sending up a stream of water akin to a fountain and then it suddenly sucks everything down with such force that you grab onto the toilet paper dispenser for fear of being dragged to China. At that point, you give up.

You're soaked by the splashing water. You're exhausted. You try to wipe with a Chicklet wrapper you found in your pocket then slink out inconspicuously to the sinks.

You can't figure out how to operate the sinks with the automatic sensors, so you wipe your hands with spit and a dry paper towel and walk past a line of women, still waiting, cross-legged and unable to smile politely at this point.

One kind soul at the very end of the line points out that you are trailing a piece of toilet paper on your shoe as long as the Mississippi River! You yank the paper from your shoe, plunk it in the woman's hand and say warmly, 'Here. You might need this.'

At this time, you see your spouse, who has entered, used and exited his bathroom and read a copy of 'War and Peace' while waiting for you.

'What took you so long?' he asks, annoyed. This is when you kick him sharply in the shin and go home.

This is dedicated to all women everywhere who have ever had to deal with a public toilet. And it finally explains to all you men what takes us so long.

Other noteworthy immortal words of wisdom from my mom included:

(1) Pinch your nose every evening so that it would grow to be aquiline (didn't work).

(2) Never mix drinks. (Ignored up to the point when I woke up one morning after and thought my head would fall off.)

(3) "Nice girls don't smoke." (No comment.)

(4) Make sure your underwear has no holes on it; you never know when you'll meet with an accident.

(5) Don't wear pencil skirts when your behind is completely flat! (Also ignored.)

(6) No matter how pretty or smart you are, there'll always be someone prettier or smarter.

(7) The fate of a plain woman is often envied by a pretty woman.

(8) Never say, of these waters I will not drink.

(9) If you don't stop frowning, your face will freeze and you'll be ugly forever.

(10) Never go out into the sun without an umbrella or headgear; you don't see farmers in bikinis, do you?

(11) If you don't stop showing off how smart you are, no one will ever marry you.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Dante's Inferno Test - I Have Been Judged

The wretched King Minos has decided your fate. His tale wraps around his body 2 times. The sweet light no longer strikes against your eyes. Your shade has been banished to... the Second Level of Hell!
You have come to a place mute of all light, where the wind bellows as the sea does in a tempest. This is the realm where the lustful spend eternity. Here, sinners are blown around endlessly by the unforgiving winds of unquenchable desire as punishment for their transgressions. The infernal hurricane that never rests hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine, whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them. You have betrayed reason at the behest of your appetite for pleasure, and so here you are doomed to remain. Cleopatra and Helen of Troy are two that share in your fate.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:


LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Moderate



Take the Dante's Inferno Test



As soon as I saw this test on Fred's blog, I had a feeling I would be sent to the 2nd level of hell. Of course, this is just for fun, no truth to this test. Hehehe.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Merry Christmas!


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Originally uploaded by fiona.d.
I know this may appear as inappropriate but I just want to show the "spirit of the season" through this picture
A friend sent me underwear and he admitted that it was supposed to be a joke. I wondered why. As soon as I saw the underwear I instantly thought he was wishing me a merry christmas. The underwear had the christmas colors: red and green with gold glitters. Hahahaha!
Nice one Ahia Tim.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

In Loving...

(From my email)

When you think of your past love, you may view itas a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go!

You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happpines means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.

You cannot finish a book without closing it'schapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture inwhich we are always learning, discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength.

But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that they were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him/her the freedom tofind his/her way...

Sunday, October 17, 2004

One True Love

The little old couple walked slowly into McDonalds that cold winter evening. They looked out of place amid the young families and young couples eating there that night. Some of the customers looked admiringly at them. You could tell what the admirers were thinking."Look, there is a couple who has been through a lot together, probably for 60 years or more!"

The little old man walked right up to the cash register, placed his order with no hesitation and then paid for theirmeal. The couple took a table near the back wall and started taking food off of the tray. There was one hamburger, one order of french fries and one drink.

The little old man unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully Cut it in half. He placed one half in front of his wife. Then he carefully counted out the french fries, divided them in two piles and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife. He took a sip of thedrink, his wife took a sip and then set the cup down between them.

As the man began to eat his few bites of hamburger the crowd began to get restless. Again you could tell what they were thinking. "That poor old couple. All they can afford is one meal for the two of them."

As the man began to eat his french fries one young man stood and came over to the old couples table. He politely offered to buy another meal for the old couple to eat.

The old man replied that they were just fine. They were used to sharing everything. Then the crowd noticed that the little old lady hadn't eaten a bite. She just sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally taking turns sipping the drink.

Again the young man came over and begged them to him buy them something to eat. This time the lady explained that no, they were used to sharing everything together.

As the little old man finished eating and was wiping his face neatlywith a napkin the young man could stand it no longer. Again he came over to their table and offered to buy some food.

After being politely refused again he finally asked a question of the little old lady, "Maam, why aren't you eating. You said that you share everything. What is it that you are waiting for?"

She answered, "The teeth."

Thursday, October 14, 2004

International Caribbean

The "boys" called the place IC or International Caribbean but used Cangcangan because of, uhm, you know, the word kangnang. You got it right Mec! Hehehe.
It was 11PM when after a few shots of gin, the boys decided to bring us to IC. Nagpaalam kami ng sister ko sa Mudra dear, sabi namin we ran out of drinks so bili lang kami sa 7-11 sandali. IC is in the heart of Grace Park in Caloocan but I'm not sure if it's still there. We didn't see anything unusual, just men in trunks/briefs dancing. Gawain ng mga kasama namin while watching is to rate the dancers and tell us which guy is dako and which one has a labakara. Hehehe.
We got home around 3AM. Mom caught us. "Kakarating niyo lang? Akala ko ba sa 7-11 kayo nagpunta?" My sister and I responded, "Opo, 7-11 sa ParaƱaque." Classic!

A few years ago my friends and I went to Gigolo (correction hindi Adonis yung napuntahan namin) on Timog. Ang mahal don ha! P300 for entrance for women while men pay P150 I think. Drinks for the ladies are P375 while men's drinks are P75. Wala kaming nakitang unusual, the boys were just walking ala ramp models. Some looked young. We couldn't stay for long because we would have to pay the entrance. Silip lang tapos sibat na.

My closest encounter with a macho dancer was 2 years ago at a bridal shower, my sister's best friend's shower and I was invited. One of the ladies knows this dancer, his name is Rey I think. He requested a tape/cd player, some rubber band and a shawl/sarong. He needed these items for his show. He was naked underneath the sarong and he would open the sarong and wrap his victim inside the sarong as he rubs his body against his victim as he grinds to the music. Syempre para hindi makita ng iba what the victim is doing with his schlong. We were all screaming inside the room. No one wanted to touch him kasi nakakahiya. Was he dako? I think so. Madilim masyado but I remember seeing his pubic hair when he came near me, tumakbo ako. It was dark inside the room most of the time, isa pa sa request niya yon. Harang! May itsu sya in fairness. He drove a Honda Civic to the party. Either his job pays very well or he has a rich sugar fafa!

Thanks for dropping by Cerridwen, Mari and Mec.

The rubber bands were supposed to make his balls rounder and firmer, FYI.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Sorry Miss Kiwi Pinay

I owe Kiwi Pinay an apology. I thought the Bong she was saying was the same guy I had in mind, apparently iba pala. Now I remember who Bong is, the chinese guy. Iba nasa isip ko. Hehehe.

I was thinking of telling a story about Kiwi Pinay and my sister's group kaso tinatamad ako right now. Wala ako sa mood mag susulat. Gusto ko nga rin sana ikuwento ang mga barkada nila na nakilala ko: Amos, Jun and Noel. These guys took me and my sister to International Cangcangan, a gay bar. My first time! I would like to give the gory details of their sex stories kaso baka ako ma censor dito. Sayang, eye opener pa man din mga kuwento nila. Hahahaha!

Asan na ba prayer beads ko? Hehehe!

Monday, October 11, 2004

Why Men Aren't Married


An online buddy from Australia sent me this. I don't know if this is true, I hope everyone, especially the menfolk, would comment on this.

Last week we threw a bachelor party for one of our good friends and then on Saturday afternoon we stood beside him in our tuxes while he and his fiancee said their vows. As I stood up there looking across the crowd, I decided that our next topic on this page would definitely talk about marriage. I also realized that alot of women may not want to hear the truth about men and marriage because the truth is so simple that they could not accept it without questioning their own relationship.

But I am here to tell you - DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, IT'S NOT THAT COMPLICATED.

The sad thing about it is that it took a woman to bring it to my attention. I had a close friend of mine tell me that she was pursuing a stable man with a girlfriend. When I asked her did she feel wrong about that she said "Shyt, a girlfriend ain't nothing - girlfriends come and go. If the man is established and he isn't either marr ied or engaged, then he is not that serious about her and he is fair game" I thought about this for a minute and came to a cold conclusion: IF A MAN IS STABLE IN LIFE AND HE IS IN A RELATIONSHIP AND NOT MARRIED, THEN IT IS BECAUSE HE IS NOT SURE ABOUT THE WOMAN THAT HE IS WITH.

He is not willing to commit to her and constantly has his eye open for something better or is waiting for her to become something better. Point blank. When he finds a woman that he is satisfied with, he will make her his wife.

And ladies, sorry to tell some of you, but it doesn't take 4 or 5 years for that man to figure it out. It doesn't take 2 or 3 years either. The only reason that a man will get married after that long of a time is because he's tired of looking for something better. And trust me, that's definitely what he was doing all of those years.
So if you should happen to find yourself in one of those "long term" relationships then maybe you should step back, take a look at yourself and wonder what it is that you're missing that this man is not willing to fully commit. Don't make excuses to yourself and your girlfriends saying things like "Oh he's waiting til he gets a better job" or "he's waiting to finish school" or "he's waiting until he moves from his apartment to a house". DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, IT'S NOT THAT COMPLICATED. Which one of those things can't be done with a wife or fiancee by your side?
So ladies, when you read this think about your situation and that man that you are living with. Or the one that you spend many nights over his house or him over yours. Think about your baby's father that you are still in a sexual relationship with. Think about your "ex" that you are in a sexual relationship with. Think about your "boyfriend". And definitely think twice before you brag on a relationship that's a couple of years long and you still have no commitment.
Like I've said before, I'm a man and I know the situation. I've been there and I know that we can come up with some extremely reasonable excuses, but.....DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, IT'S NOT THAT COMPLICATED. Nothing is more sad than the death of an illusion...

It is still best to wait for the one we want rather than settle for the one that is available. It is still best to wait for the one you love than settle for the one who is around. It is still best to wait for the right person. Because life is too short to waste on the wrong one.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Lindol!!

It was past 10PM I was on the sofa while my nephew was in bed, we were watching something I can't even remember now kasi kinakalikot ko ang cellphone ko. Naramdaman kong parang yumugyog ang sofa. Tinignan ko ang nephew ko and asked him if he felt it. Nakatingin lang ang nephew ko sa akin nakikiramdam siya. Ilang minuto na nakakalipas may nagshe-shake pa rin. Lindol nga! Pinatayo ko na sya from his bed. Biglang lumakas ang yugyog. Nagworry na ako, parang hindi na yata titigila at lalakas pa ang pang yanig ng hospital building. Nasa 8th floor kami kaya ramdam namin ang pang hampas ng gusali. Ninenerbyos na ang pamangkin ko, pati ako pero di ko pinapahalata sa kanya. Dahan-dahan kong hinila sabitan ng IV niya na parang matutumba pag hinila mo dahil sa bigat ng sabitan at ng bote na nakasabit dito. I let him stay under the door frame of his room and told him to stay there. Imagine from his bed to the door it took us 2-3 minutes pero lumilindol pa rin kahit nadon na kami. Matagal din sya. Tapos ng humupa na ang lindol nag ring ang telepono sa room. It was my sister, she was worried sick kasi she tried calling my cell but it was off, akala siguro niya may nangyari na sa amin na masama. Umiiyak na pala siya non. Then my sister in law called to check on us kasi ang mga anak niya nagwoworry sa amin dahil dalawa lang kami sa hospital. When she gave the phone to her son, nagiiiyak na ang bata kasi parang nagworry ng husto sa pinsan nila baka kung anong mangyari sa kanya. Parang gusto kong umiyak when I heard him cry. Pati pala ang bunso umiiyak na rin. Maryosep! May nagduet! Hehehe.
Nakikiramdam kami ng mga kapitkuwarto namin kung may aftershock na darating at kung may balita na tungkol sa lindol. Nakapanood ako ng news late na at halos hindi ko na rin maalala kasi inaantok na ako non.
Kung ako lang siguro ang nandon malamang hindi ako nagworry gaano kasi sigurado akong makakahanap ako ng paraan to save myself. Kung lumakas man ang lindol at gumuho ang ospital, ok lang din kasi wala akong dependents so I can "go" anytime. Kaso I was with my nephew whom I love very much, hindi ako papayag na may mangyaring masama sa kanya, definitely I would have to save him if something bad happened. He was entrusted to me so I was responsible for his well being. Hindi yata madali yon. Buti na lang pinauwi ko yung 4 year old son ng sister ko. He wanted to stay behind kasama ko raw magbantay sa kuya niya. Pinauwi ko kasi wala syang mga damit at iba pang gamit at baka magiiiyak sa pag gising niya sa umaga. Kung sakali pala nadagdagan ang responsibilidad ko that night.
I think there was a milder quake around Aug or Sept this month.
Signs of things to come?

Friday, October 08, 2004

Our Enchanted Experience


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Originally uploaded by fionski.
I've been wanting to post the picture of our Enchanted Kingdom trip. Ang saya-saya! The kids had so much fun that they want to go back there. I'm glad nag enjoy sila. That was our way of making up for our pagkukulang for the kids. Di bale mauulit pa naman ito.
Log Jam with Renmund, Jed, Krista and Bianca.



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Originally uploaded by fionski.
I'm here with Jed and Renmund(the kid infront). This is the Jungle Log Jam ride. All smiles kaming lahat. We were not aware there was a camera taking a pic. Harang, laki ng bayad kuha. This is the kids' second ride. The next day my face was red, sunkissed ako(not sunburned). Tisay eh! Nyahahaha!




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Originally uploaded by fionski.

This is the Rio Grande ride. Complete kami dito. Masaya ito kasi the ride is kinda rough and everybody gets wet. 2 kids cried during the ride, Irvin(bald kid) and Krista(small girl). We wanted a second ride but Irvin cried and wanted to stay behind, so his Dad had to stay behind with him. We all look like wet chicks here (basang sisw). Hehehe!


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PS. Got this from Hanagirl's blog. This is how evil I am. Bwahahahaha!
I am 42% evil.


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I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.
Are you evil?

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Palpak!

Kinalikot ko na naman kasi itong template ko yata nawindang na naman ang design nya! Haaaaaaaaaayy!!!

Love At Second Sight

Were you expecting me to tell you my love story just because the title of my blog has the word "love" chuchu? Hehehe. Asa pa kayo!
While I was chatting with my cousin and my friend, both are ladies and we were talking about relationships, as usual, this song suddenly started playing in my head. I wasn't even listening to any music kanina, I just "remembered" the song. Maganda sya, magaling si David Foster, very dramatic, cinematic mga songs niya. Gumamit ka ba namang ng orchestra for one song, syempre ganda ng effect! Mag enjoy na lang kayo sa pakikinig, wala kayong choice eh. Hehehe!

If we learn to pace ourselves
it won't seem so dramatic, it won't be so unclear
'cause if we learn to pace ourselves
the ghost up in the attic might just disappear
you may not agree that it could happen here
And in the morning
I think we're gonna laugh somehow
at what we are afraid of now
'cause in the morning
we'll know better than tonight
if it's gonna end up love (at second sight)

And if we learn to trust our hearts
and disregard the voices leading us away
and we can make a better start
we have all the choices, we have all the say
you might not agree, but you can't walk away
And in the morning
I think we're gonna laugh somehow
at what we are afraid of now
'cause in the morning
we'll know better than tonight
if it's gonna end up love (at second sight)

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Feng Shui for Love

My friend Paul married a nice and smart Chinese lady named Agnes. She gives feng shui advice for free, part of her "mission" to help other people. A few years ago she gave me feng shui advice, I dunno if I got everything right, because I put a picture of mandarin ducks on my South wall thinking that was my lucky wall. When I talked to her again recently she said my lucky wall is North! I checked my directions and the pic has always been on my North wall pala! Whew! I hope someone would benefit from these tips that were given to me.


Mandarin Ducks form a strong attachment to their partners and are said to pine away and die, hence, they are also an emblem of conjugal fidelity. A pair of Mandarin Ducks are excellent symbols for keeping love alive. Always keep in a pair and display them in your Tien yi romance direction in your home to keep your romance alive. All About Feng Shui recommends consulting a professional Feng Shui consultant if you find that you are having problems.

Kaya naman pala palpak yung ex ko kasi I displayed a bunch of mallards on my wall instead of mandarin ducks! Para siyang mallard!




Or you can display a pair of mandarin ducks in the Southwest. Make sure the mandarin ducks are the real mandarin ducks and not mallards, which are often passed off as mandarin ducks. Mallards change partner every season, attracting the wrong kind of guy/girl if you want a steady relationship, whereas the real mandarin ducks with the ruffled feathers round their necks stay with their partner for life. Also, make sure the mandarin ducks you display are made of gemstone (Earth element) and NOT wood; because wood destroys Earth.





Sabi pa ni Agnes I should put peonies in my room but peonies are not available here in the Philippines. Puwede yata yung artificial flowers. Sabi niya gumamelas with lots of petals look like peonies but they are not peonies. Ingat na ako ngayon baka magkamali na naman ako pumalpak na naman mahuka kong guy. If I use artificial flowers, di kaya artificial love din makuha ko? Hahaha!
She also told me to face the North when I'm working, eating, or using my computer, wear white most of the time, wear gold jewelry and sleep with my head pointing North. Mukhang mapaparenovate ang room ko ng di oras. Mukhang isasangla ko na ang aking diamond necklace ah. Hehehe.
I know some of you are skeptical pero what have I got to lose diba? Malalaman niyo kung epektib!
Btw, your lucky direction depends on your birthdate. If symptoms persist, consult your doctor.



Rio Diaz is "safely home"

Rio Diaz passed away this morning. Her ordeal has somewhat affected me. She wrote this one letter to Ricky Lo that helped me strengthen my faith in the Lord. I even shared that article to my relatives abroad. It was a good piece.
Hanagirl expressed her fear of death on her blog. I myself have a hard time grasping the concept of death. I can't imagine myself not "thinking" anymore. I can't imagine my consciousness not existing anymore. The idea is just plain abstract to me.
Anyway, I try to accept death as part of the cycle of life. You leave everything behind, all your cares, problems, aches and pains. Rio Diaz is finally resting in peace. Her suffering has finally ended. I'm sure she's happy where she is now.


Monday, October 04, 2004

Madamdaming Tugtugin

Dahil nagsesentimyento ako ngayong start ng week, gusto kong palitan na ang aking background sounds, yung tipo ng sounds na trip ko pang depressed ako o lonely.
Sabayan niyo ako sa aking paghihinagpis.
Lahat tayo makinig sa makabagbag damdaming...
Rock The Casbah!
On my sidebar you will find the player, pls click the play button. Thanks!

*Sigh*

I can't believe I got emotional on a Monday morning. I try not to think about my useless problems, try not to get upset but I'm only human.
It's hard to be all alone, you face your problems all by yourself. Life's blows would be a little less painful when you have someone to share your sorrows with, your happiness would be magnified if you have someone to share your joys (with).
Thanks for the support G. It was a little embarassing to let you see me with my guard down. But I trust you. I can say our friendship is better now.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Dito Ba?

Mom called last night because I sent her a message asking if her application for a house has been approved. Sabi malalaman pa lang niya. Kuwentuah ng konti then she passed the phone to my Dad. As usual nagsusumbong ang Tatay ko sa mga ginagawa ng Nanay ko na hindi niya maintindihan, ganon din naman Nanay ko nagsusumbong din sa akin tungkol sa Tatay ko pero this time it was my Dad's turn. Dami namin napangusapan. Nalungkot akong bigla, na miss ko silang bigla. Pininigilan ko ang umiyak kasi ayaw kong marining ng Tatay ko na umiiyak ako at baka mahirapan siya at mapaiyak din. Masaya na rin naman ako na nandon sila sa Amerika. Kung tutuusin para silang bagong kasal ngayon, may bagong buhay sila at magagawa na nila gusto nila, mga bagay bagay na hindi nila nagawa simula noong ikinasal sila. My Dad is 60, my Mom is 55, they have jobs that would allow them to buy a house there, hulugan of course. It would even be hard for them to get decent paying jobs at their age here! But they have this chance in the US kaya take advantage sila. Malayo man sila sa mga mahal nila sa buhay, ginagawa na lang nila ito para sa kanila. Anyway matatanda na kaming mga anak nila, may pamilya na ang dalawa kong kapatid so wala na silang problema.

I'm not saying that life abroad is a lot better than here but if we are to be realistic, wala ka talagang patutunguan dito ngayon. Imagine my parents, at their they have decided to start their lives abroad because they don't have a "future" here. Kung single ka at medyo nakakasapat ang suweldo mo sa iyo, ok lang na mamalagi ka dito pero paano kung may asawa at anak ka na? Ang suweldo mong 25T magkakasya ba yan sa isang buwan? Kung 2 income family kayo at kinikita niyo ay umaabot na sa 40T puwede siguro lalo na kung 1 lang ang anak niyo. Paano kung 2 anak niyo? Paano kung nasa grade school na anak niyong pareho, syempre masmalaki na ang gastos. Maliit ang 70T sa isang exclusive school na medyo sossy dito sa Metro Manila. Kung hindi naman sossy at di rin exclusive baka 40T. Wala pang books, uniforms, and incidental expenses like pamasahe, meryenda money, lunch money, etc. Paano kung nagkasakit ang anak mo at kinakailangang ma ospital o kailangan ng gamot na P75/pill, 2 times a day for 2 weeks?

I'm sure Huseng Busabos, Tanggero, Kakang Pepe and Techguy know what I'm saying. Sigurado akong hindi naging madali para sa kanila ang umalis ng bansa. Masakit, mahirap pero kinakailangan gawin. Hindi komo't iniwan nila ang kanilang bayan ay hindi na nila mahal ito. Mas kinakailangan lang nilang bigyan prioridad ang mga needs ng pamilya nila. Malamang iniisip din nila na bumalik dito para mag retire. Possible kaya yon?

On that note I would like to end my post with Kuya Hussy's poem:

Inang Bayan
aking bayang iniwan, masakit man ang katwiran kailangan
kitang iwan, para sa aking kapakanan
sariwang damo doon sa kanluran
tinawagan ako, dahil sila'y nangangailangan

kakalitong sistema, pilit pinag aralan
upang maging normal sa bayang pinuntahansang
katerbang pasyalan, hindi kayang palitan
ang lungkot na nadarama, sa aking inang bayan

ala-ala'y dala dala, saan man aking kalagyan
kamot-kamot aking paa, pag ikay napaguusapan
darating ang panahon, ika'y babalikan
paglubog ng araw, ka-akbay nating pagmamasdan
Special mention lang sa iba pang bloggers na kilala ko na nasa abroad din:
Harold who is in Bharain. My oldest and dearest friend. I get a lot of technical help from him. He's like a brother to me.
KiwiPinay in NZ - if you've been following her blog you will she what she's been through lately. I read BongK's comment how hard it must have been for Kiwipinay to go through her ordeal alone. I know the feeling, I went through a similar process. Di ko na masyadong binabasa blog niya kasi nagiging emotional ako hehehe.
Cerridwen from the US - even though she's lived all her life abroad, her heart is very much Pinoy. I admire her.
Sandro from Qatar - a total stranger who gave me my gmail kas I begged for days till he finally got tired of my pangugulit and gave me my invite. Thanks fafa Sandro.

Look at what I just stumbled upon:
By now, I had been living here in San Francisco for more than 5 months already, having arrived here last April 17, 2004. It was a sad and painful departure from Manila which has now turned into a long, long road towards adjustment and stability. It hasn't been easy. The daily struggle has been tough. It is never easy to uproot and move to a new country where you are nearly alone, save for relatives and a few friends. But to leave everything you have been accustomed to, that is one of the hardest things in life. To leave Manila, that was one of the hardest choices I had to make. It wasn't a happy choice, definitely. But I feel it is a logical choice, given the opportunity.


Friday, October 01, 2004

Sorry...

Had to delete the pic here kasi I fear that the pic could be "stolen" from my site and passed around in other sites. Nakakawa naman friend ko, baka someone might steal her body and put another face to it. Hehehe. Picpic ko na lang, gusto niyo?

Btw Cerridwen, I don't think I'm meant to buy the cell. A lot of unexpected expenses came up. I have a part time job offer but I don't think I'm inclined to take it. Telemarketing, ugh!
Tanggers, nakita mo ba yung URL na ni-post ko sa blog mo? Yun yata yung dalawang babaeng nakita mo sa pool sa dream mo eh.

Thursday, September 30, 2004

Pagsisisihan Ko Kaya Ito?

Never in my life have I bought something that's really expensive or something that's considered a luxury item. My clothes are cheap, I buy them at SM City or some tiangge in Monumento. I don't gimmick every week... Heck, I don't gimmick at all! Pinaka luxury item ko itong PC ko at ang internet connection ko na cheap din! I bought my own PC in 97. I had some money then, but I had to resort to selling some jewelry to friends and relatives just so I could augment what I already had. Nabili ko naman sa awa ng Diyos pero matagal kong pinagplanuhan yon. My PC now, I had to stay up for nights transcribing tapes for a research group just so I could raise the money to buy this one. Pinangutang ko muna ang pera from my bestfriend Carmela tapos naunti-unti kong bayaran kahit paano. Pero napuyat ako at sumakit ang ulo ko dahil dito. It was worth it!
Ngayon parang may nagbabadyang cellphone na tumatawag sa pangalan ko. Kaso I don't have any income right now because I'm on study leave(kuno). I have here money that I was able to save from the budget of our household expenses, I would feel guilty if I spend it. Buti sana kung may work ako right now kahit part time, ok lang. Haay naku!! Baka pagsisihan ko itong pagbili ko ng Nokia6600!!!

Fiona... Fiona... Come to Nokia6600...

Pahabol:

Magbenta kaya ako ng aking laman para magkapera ako? Meron kayang bibili? Kung por kilo, sigurado kikita ako! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!


Wednesday, September 29, 2004

THE POWER OF GOOD SEX!!!!

Just look at the title, you can see that the person who wrote this was really excited. Hehehe.

Did you know that you can tell from the skin whether a person is sexually active or not?

1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.

2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.

3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.

4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!

5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.

6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!

7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.

8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.

9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.

10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.

This should cure my headaches.

4.5 M pupils lack chairs, desks

Yan ang bumungad sa akin sa peryodiko kanina. Natawa ako kasi parang ngayon lang nila nalaman ito. There are public schools here in Metro Manila that have 3 shifts of classes just to accomodate all their students. Paano kulang na kulang sa classrooms. Kung kulang sa classrooms natural it would follow na kulang din sa mga chairs and desk! Sus! Kelangan pa bang i-memorize yan?
Pero say niyo, may balak ang DepEd magdagdag pa ng isang taon sa high school. San naman kaya nila isasaksak yung mga estudyante ng extra year na yon at saan kaya sila kukuha ng guro para don? Kaya may brain drain ng mga professionals dito kasi nga sa sad state ng Pilipinas ngayon.

I may not be a real teacher but I know the feeling of helplessness of a teacher having such an overwhelming responsibility given the limited resources. I remember there was one time I was lo-jacked into teaching the internet to a group of employees of TUCP. I was informed a day before the set date. When I got to the computer school kita ko ang daming tao all over, hindi pa pala na organize ang kung ilang estudyante kada classroom, wala pang room assignments. I got 30 persons to teach. When it was time for me to teach the actuall internet stuff, umpisa kasi yung surfing/using the browser. Nagtaka ako most of the people were complaining may error message daw or ayaw mag connect. Nag try kami mag IRC, ayaw din. Yun pala don sa 30 units na nasa room, 10 lang ang may internet! Waaaaaaaaaaahhhh!! Paano ako makakapagturo niyan?!?! Nakakahiya!!! Tapos kinakailangan ko pang magturo ng pag gamit ng Yahoo Messenger, yung mga units walang installed na YM! Pinag download ko sila pero ayaw mag DL kasi nga yung iba walang internet connection, yung iba naman naghahang during downloading!! Haaaaaaaayyyyyyy punyemas!! Buti hindi nagalit yung mga taga TUCP sa akin, siguro naintindihan nila ang sitwasyon ko. Hindi lang limitado ang resources mo, kapos pa!! Sa experience kong ito naiisip ko bakit sila tumanggap ng ganong kadaming tao natuturuan pero wala naman pala silang puwedeng isaksak na lecturer? Buti na lang I was free that day, kung hindi mapapahiya sila. How many times have done this? Tatanggap sila ng class o turo pero may conflict sa sched, tapos magkakandarapa sila sa paghahanap ng magtuturo. Kasalanan ng manager ito ng center at ng marketing personnel. Minsan kasalanan din ng lecturer na gumawa ng sched o tumanggap ng bagong klase thinking na may makukuhang lecturer to cover up for him. Paano puro pera ang nasa isip ng mga tao, may quota silang hinahabol every month kaya kahit na magkaproblema sa sched or availability ng lecturer or availability ng room eh sige lang sila ng sige. Paano niyo maihahalintulad ito ngayon sa sitwasyon dito sa Pilipinas?

Naaawa ako sa mga guro natin kasi mahirap talaga ang trabaho nila. Sa kanila nakasalalay ang kinabukasan ng mga bata pero limitado naman ang magagawa nila. Pero mas nakakaawa ang mga bata kasi long term ang effects ng ganitong sistema ng edukasyon dito sa Pilipinas. Sira ang kinabukasan nila.