Thursday, September 30, 2004

Pagsisisihan Ko Kaya Ito?

Never in my life have I bought something that's really expensive or something that's considered a luxury item. My clothes are cheap, I buy them at SM City or some tiangge in Monumento. I don't gimmick every week... Heck, I don't gimmick at all! Pinaka luxury item ko itong PC ko at ang internet connection ko na cheap din! I bought my own PC in 97. I had some money then, but I had to resort to selling some jewelry to friends and relatives just so I could augment what I already had. Nabili ko naman sa awa ng Diyos pero matagal kong pinagplanuhan yon. My PC now, I had to stay up for nights transcribing tapes for a research group just so I could raise the money to buy this one. Pinangutang ko muna ang pera from my bestfriend Carmela tapos naunti-unti kong bayaran kahit paano. Pero napuyat ako at sumakit ang ulo ko dahil dito. It was worth it!
Ngayon parang may nagbabadyang cellphone na tumatawag sa pangalan ko. Kaso I don't have any income right now because I'm on study leave(kuno). I have here money that I was able to save from the budget of our household expenses, I would feel guilty if I spend it. Buti sana kung may work ako right now kahit part time, ok lang. Haay naku!! Baka pagsisihan ko itong pagbili ko ng Nokia6600!!!

Fiona... Fiona... Come to Nokia6600...

Pahabol:

Magbenta kaya ako ng aking laman para magkapera ako? Meron kayang bibili? Kung por kilo, sigurado kikita ako! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!


Wednesday, September 29, 2004

THE POWER OF GOOD SEX!!!!

Just look at the title, you can see that the person who wrote this was really excited. Hehehe.

Did you know that you can tell from the skin whether a person is sexually active or not?

1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.

2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.

3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.

4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!

5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.

6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!

7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.

8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.

9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.

10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.

This should cure my headaches.

4.5 M pupils lack chairs, desks

Yan ang bumungad sa akin sa peryodiko kanina. Natawa ako kasi parang ngayon lang nila nalaman ito. There are public schools here in Metro Manila that have 3 shifts of classes just to accomodate all their students. Paano kulang na kulang sa classrooms. Kung kulang sa classrooms natural it would follow na kulang din sa mga chairs and desk! Sus! Kelangan pa bang i-memorize yan?
Pero say niyo, may balak ang DepEd magdagdag pa ng isang taon sa high school. San naman kaya nila isasaksak yung mga estudyante ng extra year na yon at saan kaya sila kukuha ng guro para don? Kaya may brain drain ng mga professionals dito kasi nga sa sad state ng Pilipinas ngayon.

I may not be a real teacher but I know the feeling of helplessness of a teacher having such an overwhelming responsibility given the limited resources. I remember there was one time I was lo-jacked into teaching the internet to a group of employees of TUCP. I was informed a day before the set date. When I got to the computer school kita ko ang daming tao all over, hindi pa pala na organize ang kung ilang estudyante kada classroom, wala pang room assignments. I got 30 persons to teach. When it was time for me to teach the actuall internet stuff, umpisa kasi yung surfing/using the browser. Nagtaka ako most of the people were complaining may error message daw or ayaw mag connect. Nag try kami mag IRC, ayaw din. Yun pala don sa 30 units na nasa room, 10 lang ang may internet! Waaaaaaaaaaahhhh!! Paano ako makakapagturo niyan?!?! Nakakahiya!!! Tapos kinakailangan ko pang magturo ng pag gamit ng Yahoo Messenger, yung mga units walang installed na YM! Pinag download ko sila pero ayaw mag DL kasi nga yung iba walang internet connection, yung iba naman naghahang during downloading!! Haaaaaaaayyyyyyy punyemas!! Buti hindi nagalit yung mga taga TUCP sa akin, siguro naintindihan nila ang sitwasyon ko. Hindi lang limitado ang resources mo, kapos pa!! Sa experience kong ito naiisip ko bakit sila tumanggap ng ganong kadaming tao natuturuan pero wala naman pala silang puwedeng isaksak na lecturer? Buti na lang I was free that day, kung hindi mapapahiya sila. How many times have done this? Tatanggap sila ng class o turo pero may conflict sa sched, tapos magkakandarapa sila sa paghahanap ng magtuturo. Kasalanan ng manager ito ng center at ng marketing personnel. Minsan kasalanan din ng lecturer na gumawa ng sched o tumanggap ng bagong klase thinking na may makukuhang lecturer to cover up for him. Paano puro pera ang nasa isip ng mga tao, may quota silang hinahabol every month kaya kahit na magkaproblema sa sched or availability ng lecturer or availability ng room eh sige lang sila ng sige. Paano niyo maihahalintulad ito ngayon sa sitwasyon dito sa Pilipinas?

Naaawa ako sa mga guro natin kasi mahirap talaga ang trabaho nila. Sa kanila nakasalalay ang kinabukasan ng mga bata pero limitado naman ang magagawa nila. Pero mas nakakaawa ang mga bata kasi long term ang effects ng ganitong sistema ng edukasyon dito sa Pilipinas. Sira ang kinabukasan nila.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Kalabaw the Artist

I changed the colors of my blog so you could appreciate the colors the pictures here. I just posted 4 of Kalabaw's work, they are all pastel on felt. He has other drawings on different media but I like these 4 because of their colors and theme.
Why am I showing you his works? (Some parts deleted upon the request of Kalabaw)
If this happens, I could probably sell his drawings at a good price. Hehehe.


Fionski in pastel. This is his first drawing of me. I love this one kasi payat ang face ko dito. He did a more realistic drawing of me, mataba ang mukha at oily ang skin. He even had it framed and brought it here to my place, all the way from Paranaque. Sweet noh? Kaya love ko siya kahit lagi kaming nag aaway. Hehehe.
Posted by Hello

The Barkada.
He wasn't able to finish this one. Lagi kaming hindi nabubuo sa HQ namin(one of our barkada's condo where we hang out), ako lagi absent. Tapos nadagdagan kami, hindi kami kasya sa frame, kelangan ng extension, esp with Teri in the picture. Hehehe. Buti na lang hindi nagbabasa ng blog si Teri! But the biggest reason why he can't finish this is because of our away-bati relationship. If you notice here, blurry ang pic ko kasi naka ilang beses niyang inerase ang mukha ko. Natapos niya lahat ako lang hindi. He never got to finish this paano nag away kami after this. Haaayy!
Posted by Hello

Nude but not Me.
I know the male readers wish this was me kaso hindi eh. This girl is slimmer than me and the face isn't mine. Hindi nga yata nagshave eh. Hahahaha! I asked him who his model was he said it's Teri but then I doubt it. Then he said it's a secret. I admire is sense of discretion, at least I know he wouldn't tell anyone if I pose in the nude for him. Hmmm...
Posted by Hello

Sunday, September 26, 2004

WOMEN, HEED THIS WARNING!


ella.jpg
Originally uploaded by fionski.

I got an email via myspace from a total stranger. She asked me to read her blog there. On her profile it says "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." This made me curious. I don't know if she's telling the truth or she's just bitter, she won't introduce herself. Then again she really hasn't divulged much about the guy concerned, just his first name.
Ladies, forewarned is forearmed. Whether this is true or not, pays to be careful. Kaya mga stalkers and users, magbabayad din kayo!

Do you think this is true? You be the judge.

WOMEN, HEED THIS WARNING!

he sent sent me a msg in myspace introducing himself as based in new jersey with his co. based in new york. he said he arrived in manila on oct 2003 and is currently assigned here until 2006 heading global finance. he gave me his mobile number and i responded. he said he is just recovering from a failed relationship with a live-in partner for 3 yrs. whom he caught in bed with his bestfriend. that he had been badly hurt and lost faith in any relationship but now he is opening his doors again. That he signed up on myspace because he is looking for someone who would make him feel "alive" again.

i guess he's telling this sad story to melt the heart of any woman and sympathize with him. he wanted us to meet but something tells me not to trust him easily because he gave very limited info on his profile. i tried what i could get about him from viewing his profile. i noticed he's been adding married women on his list. if he is after a serious and lasting relationship why would he do that?

i visited all the profiles in his frnds list and chanced upon one with his comment posted on it saying exactly the same thing he said to me. that he chooses her among all the list in his profile. i felt betrayed. obviously he hadn't been honest and it gave me the impression that he just wanted to use any trusting woman who responded.

luckily, i was wise enough to check and find this out before i regretted it. i know that i shouldn't immediately trust any1 i meet on the internet but my doors are open for real friendship.

I was able to contact some of those who were in his list which he deleted and true enough some of them have heard the same line from him.

if it were true that alex had already chosen one among the women listed on his profile dapat stop na s'ya but why is he still reaching out to other women? What is he really up to? He treats women like commodities in the market.

the worst that could happen to any woman is to end up feeling she had been used by any man. you lose your self-respect and dignity. anyone could easily fall for somebody like him only to regret it in the end.

i feel responsible to give this warning to other women in my space. don't let anyone exploit you. Beware of ALEXANDER!



ella_bb.JPG, originally uploaded by fionski.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Chat Lines

I just want to share with everyone some lines I've read on people's profiles or stuff that were said to me online or through text. Hindi naman ako masamang tao, hindi mapanglait at alam ko nagkakamali ako pero itong mga mababasa niyo maaaliw kayo, I'm sure! Paki correct niyo ako kung mali ako puwede?

SNIPPETS FROM PROFILES:
Godly nest is Cleanly nest...!
Im a friend you can lend on
Favorite Movies: pretty women and nodding hill
Ang gagaling!

FROM TEXT:
me: so what do you do for a living?
guy: oh, i dont take it seriously... how about you?
Wow! Sayang piso ko dito.

FROM CHAT:
chipper: so waht does ur name pertaining to?
Ay ewan!

me : what do you do? ( I should have added "for a living" here)
guy : heto, chatting with you... i'm boring eh.
Bored na nga ako sa iyo eh. Bwahahahahaha!

me: it says on your profile you're conyo, what does conyo mean?
chad: ok lang basta ganun,so can u send me another pic?
me: i only have 1 pic... the one on my profil
chad: sus its so vague
chad: i can even see your face
chad: whats your height ?
me: vague?
me: you can see my face naman pala eh... so what's the problem?
chad: malabo yung kuha eh
me: paanong malabo? you jsut said you can even see my face
Vague pala ang mukha ko pero nakikita niya.

me : ang alam ko kse mga guys, what's normal for them is getting laid often
phil : there's always excemption di ba?
phil : not all
me : exception
me : exception to the rule you mean?
phil : ok
phil : sorry, Miss Smart
me : oops... sorry...
phil : it's ok
me : did i offend you?
phil : just a bit
me : oh ok.. sorry.. wont do that anymore
me : ikaw ba... if you see me make a blooper would you correct me or you would just let it pass?
phil : I don't really make it as a big deal
me : like a spelling mistake? you wont correct me?
phil : for me I prefer to talk to americans, you know why?... they're not grammatically conscious phil : like filipinos
me : ahh i see
me : well i have to be grammatically conscious.. part of my job
phil : i know, but I'm not your student
Oonga naman, I shouldn't correct him kasi he's not my student.

Ang sama ko ba? Sorry ha...


Believe It Or Not

I'm officially sick now. I have a headache and I sound funny because of my cold. Ngongo ako.
Anyway, I just want to document what happened to me this morning. Well, part of what "happened" to me.
Backtrack tayo 2 years ago. Tom my friend has been telling about his friend who is psychic. He would keep on bragging about her, kesyo she's gives good advice and all that. Siyempre skeptical ako, I know manghuhulas are just that: manghuhula. It's not that I do not believe all manghuhulas or that I haven't tried going to one. Whenever I talk to one I am always on the look out for their slip-ups. Most manghuhulas tend to give general readings, tipong applicable to any person or any situation. I never really paid much attention to his stories about his friend.
A few days ago I decided to send Tom a message. I told him I'm sad and I need to talk to someone. He told me about his friend, let's call her MissTerious. I decided to give it a try. If he had asked me to meet her around Febuary, I would have said no. My state of mind now is different. I'm living on the edge now! Hehehe.
So I went to Tom's place 10AM. MissTerious was already waiting for me for 10 mins when I got there. Tom introduced me to her and left me with her.
Before we started she gave me instructions to remember everything she'd tell me because once she leaves the room she would forget everything. She brought out a deck of playing cards, shuffled them a bit then asked me to pick out a card without looking at it. Then she picked 3 cards from the top of the pile. She described me at first. The stuff she told me were things that anyone who knows how to read people would have figured that out. But as she went along there were details that struck. She said stuff about my parents and my family that almost made me cry. I was on the verge of breaking down 3 times while she was doing her reading but I was able to control myself. She said I feel that my family doesn't appreciate me, that I don't get the credit I deserve for doing the things I do. She's right! This is something not even Tom knows. She said that I'm starting to realize now that my parents love me, especially my Mom. True, my Mom's been good to me lately and now my Dad's with her and he has his work now, he even promised to help me out with my studies. *sniff*
She mentioned this guy who broke my heart. Natawa ako. She said, "Matalino ka pero pagdating dito sa lalaking ito parang nabobobo ka. Hindi naman sa bobo ka pero nasisira ang diskarte mo dahil sa kanya." Words to that effect. I was grinning from ear to ear. She said a lot of things that were true. Amazing talaga!
Here are some stuff she said:

MissTerious: Sabi ng mga nakapaligid sa lalaking ito wag ka na pakawalan kasi siguradong mahal mo sya. Sabi ng mga taong nakapaligid sa iyo i-drop mo na sya. This is so true! Hehehe!

MissTerious: Lagi mong naiisip na sa hirap ng dinaranas mo nagtataka ka kung bakit pinarurusahan ka. Sinasabi mo sa Angel mo na ginagawa mo ang lahat pero hindi ka pa rin binibiyayaan ng para sa iyo. I keep complaining that I've been a good person, I've done everything I could to be good in the eyes of man and God but inspite of my efforts I still don't get anything good in return, like it doesn't pay to be good.

MT: Hindi dahil sa masama ang magpahula, pero pinipigilan ka ng guardian angel mo kaya hindi ka nagpapahula. Iba nasa isip mo pag hinuhulaan ka. Hindi makakapasa sa iyo ang kahit sinong manghuhula. This is true, I really am not inclined to see a manghuhula to consult my problems. She added something that I won't mention here but she definitely knows why I don't like going to manghuhulas anymore. I'm just going through a rebellious stage now.

After the general reading you are allowed to ask questions. Most of my questions were answerable by YES or NO. But there was question that stood out because of her answer:
Me: Ang mga tanong ba dapat answerable by Yes or No o puwede kahit anong tanungin ko?
MT: Puwede kahit ano.
Me: (Pause for a few seconds) Saan siya?
MT: Nandito siya sa Pilipinas. Hindi ko masabi exactly kung nandidito pa sya pero alam ko dumating sya dito this year. Puwedeng umalis na or papaalis na.
This is highly unusual because he's from the US and he's supposed to have arrived this month here and he was here a few months ago. I never mentioned this to her nor Tom. Tom doesnt even know anything about him. Coincidence? Of course you could say she was making a general statement but why say he's here in the Philippines when it is usually assumed that he should be here. Why mention the Philippines?

Of course there were instances where she couldn't give me a definite answer, but she would tell me immediately. There was one statement she said that was not true, she said "nakatapos ka sa eskuwelahan dahil sa sarili mong sikap, dahil sa sarili mong kayod..." Paanong mangyayari yon eh hindi pa ako tapos?
I hope I'm not deluding myself into thinking that she's omniscient, she's not. There are certain details that I won't be able to verify anymore. There are certain fine points which I would rather not accept as true, lest I would give myself false hopes and get hurt again. But in fairness hindi naman sya nagsabi ng mga bagay na paapasahin ka sa wala.
She also gave me sound advice. Sabi niya, "Nasasaiyo yan kung gusto mo. Kung gugustuhin mo mangyari puwede naman." I like the idea that a person is still responsible for his/her own destiny, hindi yung sinabi ng manghuhula eh gospel truth na or when a manghuhula speaks feeling nya absolute truth sinabi nya.
O sya lang yan share ko. I think I'm coming down with the flu. Lakas ng energy na na expend ko sa hula na yan ha! Hehehe.


Thursday, September 23, 2004

My Radio Station

I'm testing something. I hope some of you could participate. I am doing a test broadcast of my radio station. Just click on the title of this entry, a file will be downloaded by your computer and your winamp/jetaudio will automatically play my station. Or you could try this link, this will direct you to a list of stations, just click on the the MP3 Listen button beside my name. Another way is to copy-paste this address in your winamp or jetaudio: http://202.70.103.40:9000/
I'm currently playing OPM right now. Enjoy!

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Taken In

by Mike And The Mechanics

I can relate to this song. I was taken in again! Yes, I'm one of the proverbial "sucker born every minute." I'm such a fool! Where ever you are, this one's for you.

Taken in, taken in again
Wrapped around the finger of some fair-weather friend
Caught up in the promises, left out in the end
No pride, taken for a ride
You say I'm the only one when I look in your eyes
I want to believe you but you know how to lie

And if you say you understand I don't believe it
And when you reach out for my hand I don't believe it
And if you say you take the blame I don't believe it
And if say that nothing's changed I don't believe it, don't believe it

Taken in, taken in again
Someone saw me coming, a fool without a friend
There's one born every minute and you're looking at him (me!)

And if you say you want me near I don't believe it
And when you're holding back the tears I don't believe it
And when you swear that you are mine I don't believe it
And it's your heart that's on the line I don't believe it, don't believe it

Taken in, taken in again
Wrapped around the finger of some fair-weather friend
Caught up in the promises, left out in the end
No pride, taken for a ride
You say I'm the only one when I look in your eyes
I'd love to believe you but you know how to lie

You say you want me near I don't believe it
And when you're holding back the tears I don't believe it
Oh, there's one born every minute, you're looking at him

Taken in, taken in again
Someone saw me coming, a fool without a friend
I want to believe you, oh
When you say you understand
When you reach out for my hand
Oh, I wish I could believe you
Taken in, taken in again...

Monday, September 20, 2004

BETRAYAL!!

Which is more painful? It's hard to be betrayed by a your lover and your friend but which do you think is harder? Take your pick:


hurt 1


hurt 2
Originally uploaded by fionski.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Out of Reach

I like this song, my current background music. Remember Bridget Jones' Diary? This is the theme song of that movie, sung by Gabrielle.
It is painful to realize that the person you love(d) probably didn't really love you at all but you know in time you would be over him and that you have your life ahead of you. Painful yung experience pero hopeful pa rin.

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, So much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside.
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you.

But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me...

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Is it about Me?

I did this entry in respone to the comments posted on my last entry.
Is the last blog about me? Let's just say that the entry definitely hits home but I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people who can relate to it.

To Anonymous:
I thought in the US guys tend to me more careful when it comes to saying "iloveyou" because it carries a lot of weight. It is the Pinoys who are more "generous" when it comes to dispensing those words specially in chatrooms. I thought that being exposed to American culture for 10-15 years would someohow change a person's way of thinking. Kaso kahit saan pala basta Pinoy, great lover: bolero at babaero, kahit sa Timbuktu pa sya lumaki.
I'm having a hard time finishing the book. I'm supposed to have finished it by now because it's a fairly small book but there seem to be a part of me that resists the book. Is it good? I can't say for sure. By the River Piedra is a love story. I'm not exactly fond of love stories.

To Tanggero:
I know it's stupid to rely on signs, same way it's not wise to rely on emotions or feelings because they tend to change depending on the state of mind we are in.
This is a problem of mine, I tend to believe signs and my gut feel. Although I'm not psychic, there are lots of times my intuition has helped me solve "mysteries." Even superstitious beliefs, there are a few that I tend to believe.

My dear Harold:
You mean you dont say "iloveyou" to your girlfriends? Or you changed your style now? Ano na style mo kabsat? Hehehe.

I want to say more but my eyes are tired, I can barely keep them open. Iba na talaga henyo. Hehehe. Ay henya ba dapat? Parang babaeng manok!

Love? Really?

I don't get it. How can some men, esp. Filipino men, say "I love you," to women they hardly even know. Or they say those words to a lot of women, seems like they are inlove with a lot of these women. Do mean equate love with anything they feel at that moment whether it's lust, or elation, or rush of adrenaline, or even jock itch? Do these men really know what love means or how true love really feels?
Mga babae naman tanga. Just because a guy says he loves her naniniwala naman agad. Are women esp. Filipinas so gullible? Why do we tend to easily forgive the person who did us wrong and take him back into our arms, knowing that he would hurt as again? Hay naku! Having a broken heart isn't a walk in the park. It hurts like hell!
I am currently reading By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho. I thought this book would be something inspirational in the spiritual sense. So far to me it's like a romantic love story with a metaphysical twist. My friend Paul told me to read signs. Sometimes the universe shows us signs on what to do. Something like synchronicity. Maybe this book is a sign.
Oh boy! I'm so screwed in the head. I'm not making any sense.
Blah!

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Gaano Kadalas Ang Minsan

This song was sung by Basil Valdez, considered a classic here in the Philippines. It has been playing in my mind for a few days now and I just decided to post it here. This is like my reaction to one forum I read about this girl and her ex. She said that he wants her back but she doesn't want him anymore, after all that's been said and done. One reaction to her post was that maybe the guy realized his mistake, that he still loves her and that he's doing everything to win her back. My reaction to his post was this: gaano kadalas ang minsan? That's how this LSS started.
Gaano kadalas ang minsan (how often is once)? To me this song is kinda "ambiguous." It asks how often is once when we allow ourselves to get hurt, we say this won't happen again yet we seem to let it happen over and over. We never seem to learn what that one incident should have taught us. We keep inflicting pain on ourselves. It could also mean that we get hurt once but the pain seems to last forever.
The song reeks of infidelity and breach of trust between lovers. If love isn't true or pure, it's best to put an end to it. No can hide the truth.

The lyrics to my current background music:

I
Gaano kadalas ang minsan lang ka mahagkan,
Sindalas na rin ng dami ng bituin waring walang hanggan.
Dahil sa labi ko'y laging mararamdaman,
Kahit sandali halik mo'y dumampi minsan.

II
Gaano kadalas ang makapiling kang minsan,
Sa kin sindalas ng walang wakas, saglit mang magpisan.
Dahil sa ganon paraan lang mag-iisa,
Kung magsasanib ang dalawang dibdib diba.

Refrain:
Ngunit(dahil) kung pag-ibig ay hindi rin lang wagas
Mabuti pa, mabuti nga, mabuti ang hanggang maaga'y magwakas
Pagkukunwari'y itago man ay lalabas
At minsan kang matuklasan hapdi'y walang kasing dalas.

III
Gaano kadalas ang minsan mo akong saktan,
Kahit minsan lang sa'kin para bang walang katapusan.
Gaano kadalas ba ang puso'y namamatay,
Gaano kadalas, gaano kadalas ang minsan?

Repeat Refrain, III
... Gaano kadalas, gaano kadalas ang minsan?




More Blogs to Read

I enjoy reading other people's blogs. After I submit my post, I check out updated blogs. I would click on the blogs with titles that would catch my fancy. Most of the time I would come across pinoy blogs just by following links. I discovered through blogger's recently updated blogs section Huseng Busabos' blog. Through his blog I stumbled upon Tanggero's and Kiwipinay's blogs. Good thing I tagged Kiwipinay's box, she recoginzed my last name and my sister from the pics from my flickr box. Kiwipinay and my sister were members of this beeper/pager group that conducted medical missions in urban poor areas. This was back in the 90's when the usong cellphone looked like an apache case (attache case). The more stylish, more uso phones then were those that looked like metal detectors used by sikyos in malls, and the phones were probably even bulkier because if your hand was as small as mine, you would have to use both hands to hold the phone upright. And you would have to screw on the antenna to use it.
But I digress.
It's nice to encounter people from your past, people who happen know someone you know. Small world (the small world phenomenon is the theory that everyone in the world can be reached through a short chain of social acquaintances) talaga. Parang six degress of separation (six degrees of separation is a phrase deriving from the small world experiment referring to the concept that everyone is connected to everyone else in the world by only six degrees of separation, or six sets of acquaintances).

Saturday, September 11, 2004

My New Look

I've been having visions problems for 2 months now and I've been having headaches frequently. I knew it was my eyes but I had no money to buy glasses. Finally, my Mom and Dad decided to send me money for my glasses. I had to go all the way to Sta. Cruz to buy inexpensive yet functional glasses. Well, I think I got a pair that looks good on me. Thanks Mom and Dad!
Fetching, huh?

The scholar


Nice smile!
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Thursday, September 09, 2004

Latest in Cameraphone Technology

FOR SALE: camera with built-in phone. A friend of mine sent me an email to inform me that some of her friends decided to go on a business venture.
They are marketing this new handphone made by Motorola and Fujifilm. It's one of the coolest camera with a built-in handyphone. You will be the talk of the town once you have this cool phone.
State of the Art Technology from USA and Japan. So please hurry. Order your phones now. Special discounts shall be given to the first 10 orders. Free Strap. The price is incredibly very cheap for only 5,000 PhP or barely $100. Limited stocks only. So guys ano pa hinihintay nyo?!? Get one NOW!!! Para sa inyo tong phone na to!!

Please see pics below on how the phone looks and how to operate it.




Latest cellphone view, originally uploaded by fionski.

The Name FIONA

I hope this works today. I've been trying to post my entry since yesterday morning but I couldn't publish this one.
Someone made an Anonymous comment about my name. Here is the story behind my name:
Fiona - From Gaelic fionn, "white". This is according to THE READER'S DIGEST ENCYCLOPAEDIC DICTIONARY.
When my Mom was pregnant with me she read a novel that had a character there named Fiona. That's how she discovered my name. But she can't remember the title of that book. Heeheehee.
Fiona, a 3-syllable girl's name of Gaelic origin, means: Fair-complexioned.
Fiona's ethnic backgrounds include Irish and English/Welsh. This is from ivillage's Baby Name Finder.
Am I the epitome of my name? In a way, yes. I don't look like your average Filipina. Most Filipinas are morena(mixed blood/race on the darker side) but it seems more and more Filipinas are getting fairer. I have Ilocano blood and Ilocanos are know to have dark brown skin, I don't. My Dad has brown skin, my Mom isn't really as fair as I am. I take after my maternal grandmother who has Chinese-Spanish blood. She is what we call mestiza(having mixed blood/race on the fairer side). When I was born I had light brown hair and I was very, very fair. I looked so delicate. But that was then... I wish I hadn't grown up!
Btw, Fionski is a petname or nickname given to me by my friends in college, my UPGEClub orgmates.
Thanks for the compliment Anonymous person.

Monday, September 06, 2004

My Very Own Blinky

See what a little common courtesy can do? I followed the link to Push from the last muse's site and dropped a line in the tag box there and Zoey gave me my own blinkie! Of course I wanted to have my own blinky but I was kinda shy to ask her. She read my mind and custom made one for me, the colors even fit my blog's design! I'm really grateful!

Friday, September 03, 2004

Gmail Update

Wakanga! I got another 6 more invites today! Sheesh! How am I supposed to dispose all of these? The people on friendster aren't interested, most of them don't even know what gmail is, most of them are related to Igno.Most of the people on my mailing list are too busy to sign up, do not have emails other than yahoo or hotmail or do not have the time to check emails or not interested at all. And to think a few months ago I was practically begging for invites so my friends could get an account.Oh well...

blog screenshot, originally uploaded by fionski.

At the bottom of this picture, you see DO YOU LOVE ME? Click on this link to add a comment. Now at the right side of this pic you see a box with my name and more small boxes underneath. Click on the first top box you click inside to put your name there. Then click inside the box that says Message to put your message, click on the smiley below if you want to put a smiley with your message. Put your email address in the 3rd box and the URL of your website or blog if you have one. Then press on the send button to send or reset to change everything. If you're hesitant to put your valid/ISP email address in this blog, just send me an email after you've posted your comment and shoutbox message. To those with gmail accounts already, there is this application that announces if you have new mail in your account. You can check your Gmail messages without opening your browser.
Daming arte! Hehehe.


Thursday, September 02, 2004

New Stuff

I reverted back to my new "clean" look. The other template was nice but I feel it didn't fit my personality.
I added a few stuff here like the FILIPINA link and Random Bible Verses. I got these two links from Her Story... I would love to have a blinkie for my blog but I'm not sure if it fits me since my friends all know I'm not girly-girl and I'm not sugar and spice and all things nice, well not at my age. Her blog reminds me of Papelemroti.
The Daily Zeitgeist I've had for a week now. I just want to incorporate pictures into my blog without posting each and every picture I have. The idea of having a photo album here that cycles through my collection of photos. It's dynamic! I chose MyShoutBox for my blog because it's not popular yet and the feature that they offer are not bad. The only problem with this is the colors and design of the box, one would have to choose from a selection themes which can't be tweaked that much. Good thing I don't have a problem with the color selection.
I'm not sure if I should add Chona in the City to my list of favorites here. I like the writer's style. Reading the blog is like watching Candy Pangilinan, I don't know why.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

BERrrrrrr Na!

Umpisa na ng BERrrr months today. How time flies when you're having fun. Parang kelan lang I was making my goals for the year, ngayon mukhang kelangan ko na ulit gumawa ng panibagong goals for the coming year lest I fail to make the list ergo fail to accomplish anything.
*BIG SIGH* What have I done this year? What have I accomplished so far? 2004 is a very stressful year, daming changes nangyari sa buhay ko.
Even before the year started I was already at the throes of depression, and it extended till mid May. Am I still depressed? Not anymore but I would drift in and out of paranoia once in a while. Something that comes with my "decisions", with my past and the people invovled in my past. I'm dealing with my reactions and I can say I'm doing pretty well.
Gone back to school, studying of course. Why is it when I tell a friend that I'm back in school, they would almost always ask, "are you teaching or studying?" or "where are you teaching?" Since they know I used to give lectures I guess they would automatically assume I'm teaching again. I'm back in school, I'm studying again, or what seems to be like "studying." Anyway, I've "discovered" a solution to this problem after so many years of waiting and hoping that I'd get back to school. Finally, I'm back in school! Wag sana akong pumalpak!
Yo-yo weight problem. I must have lost 20lbs and gained 25lbs. So what else is new?
Isa na lang problema ko. I just have 2 weeks to wait to make up my mind. I hope the Lord would enlighten me and lead me to the way I should go; I pray He gives me enough strength to face my decision head on.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
I was able to do all these things through God's grace. I am grateful.
I think I had better start making my goals for the coming year.