Thursday, December 23, 2004

Flirting and Teasing

If Mari has flirting signals and Cerridwen has flirting in a relationship, this one is flirting online. It's fun to flirt especially when the person you're flirting with knows how to respond and respond well.

Predator> do u need a gardener?
BaBae38> depends
BaBae38> what kind of garden are you talking about?
Predator> oh...all kinds
Predator> im handy
BaBae38> you're in hawaii
BaBae38> you would charge in $$$
BaBae38> cant afford you
Predator> it's free
BaBae38> really?
Predator> i just need some snacks
BaBae38> sure
Predator> and drinks i guess
BaBae38> hahahaha of course
BaBae38> my garden is special
BaBae38> it hasn't been watered in a long time
Predator> i will tend to it well
Predator> i will make sure it stays fresh
BaBae38> would you cut the weeds?
Predator> if u prefer
BaBae38> water my flower? plant your seed?
BaBae38> is your hose long?
Predator> hmm...about 7 inch long
Predator> but fat
BaBae38> that's not bad
BaBae38> most of the hoses i've seen are are a lot shorter than that
Predator> but it can gush like a geyser when handled properly
BaBae38> that's why my garden's been dry for a long time
Predator> i can make ur garden lush in no time
BaBae38> you might wreck my garden! hhahahha
Predator> ekk
Predator> hehehe...i doubt it
Predator> im gentle
BaBae38> at 7? that's big... to me at least
Predator> well then we can try half
BaBae38> see? my garden is small
BaBae38> can you be gentle?
Predator> of course
Predator> im sure ull have tears in ur eyes by the time we're done
BaBae38> really now?
BaBae38> can you guarantee that?
Predator> nope
BaBae38> aaww
Predator> it can happen though
Predator> ill just tend ur garden
BaBae38> hahahahaha
BaBae38> pull out the weeds
Predator> shave it all off
Predator> mow it down
BaBae38> ¤ Ha Ha Ha ¤
Predator> do an awesome landscape

Something like this can be stimulating and of course, fun! This reminds me of my friend and her European lover. One time he was on his way home and while driving he caller her.

Euro: I'm driving home right now.
Aya: What kind of a car do you have?
Euro: I have a Volvo.
Aya: You have a Volvo but I have a VULVA.

And they both cracked up then had phonesex later. Hehehe.
Humor and intelligence can be sexy. It's really all in the mind.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Jealousy: Intense Love or Insecurity?

It's finally over. He can't take her incessant nagging and jealous fits any longer. He just walked out on her and she's now lost, not knowing what to do.
I remember last year he kept telling me, "Hindi ko na kaya, hindi ko na kaya." I was thinking he wanted to tell someone that he is having an affair. Yun pala hindi na niya kaya ang ugali ng asawa niya. There were times he would motion me not to speak or not to say certain things, paano ina-nag na naman pala sya about it. He spends a lot of money on overseascalls to her but everytime he calls she nags her about some insignificant detail. Nakakasawa nga talaga. He bought her a PC so they could chat but she still nags him about something or the other. She even questioned the time he chatted with me, my mom and a cousin, HELLURR??? We are his family!!! How can she question that?? Duh!!!
I know how it feels to have a partner who is terribly seloso. A few years ago I had a BF wanted to control my life, pati nickname ko gustong palitan. I relented just to keep the peace but he didn't stop there. Even my emails he wanted to know who were the people on my email list. And I can't go out if he doesn't approve of the people I'm supposed to go out with. For a time I tried to understand him because he was in the US and I was here in the Philippines. I was in a long distance relationship so in my heart I had to make the necessary adjustments to make it work. But I got tired of giving in to his unreasonable demands. Inspite of the fact that he made the rules, he also broke them and when I pointed this out to him he called me controlling. "F*ck you!" I told him, and that was the end of my suffering.
I know how it feels to love someone yet hate him and dread the time you talk to him. I remember feeling nanggigigil whenever we chat because I knew something was going to be raised that would cause us to fight. Natuto pa nga ako mag lie just so we wouldn't fight anymore. Kaya lang even if I was able to pull if off I always had this feeling he would know about it and it scared me. It's either we fight, which is stressful, or I lie to him, which also causes me stress. Either way talo ako, so I quit. It hurt but it felt better having peace of mind.
Why was my ex seloso? Well he was insecure. He has this superiority complex to cover up his insecurities. He thinks he's smart and wise and all that and he did everything to put me down. If he believes in himself so much then why is he still insecure? The thing is he doesn't, he knows he is still inferior.
Why is she selosa? Because she is insecure. I don't know why but compared to him, mas nakakalamang siya. She has trust issues. She ask Nanay, "Masama ba ang magselos?" If I had heard this I would have told her, "Ate, at 43(or 44) hindi na cute yan, nakakinis na! Kung 19 ka tapos selosa ka siguro puwede pang palagpasin ang pagseselos pero sa edad mong yan dapat mature ka na."
Don't get me wrong, I do have my insecurities and I do get jealous at times but not to the point of losing a loved one. Besides, why would I show anyone my insecurites, baka i-exploit pa nila! Hehehe. Cute din ang mild selos, it makes you feel wanted or desired by your partner. But just like anything else, too much can kill you or your relationship for that matter.
Bottom line: jealousy, insecurity and lack of trust, these things show the level of maturity a person has when it comes to a relationship. Unfortunately, maturity doesn't come with age nor intelligence.


Update on my friend.
She's not giving up on her BF no matter what but she talked to me and she knows how bad I really feel for her. I felt bad that I reprimanded her ahd said hurtful words to her. We talked again later that day and she understands how I feel. I apologized to her for being so tough on her. She said she can take anything I tell her because she knows I care for her. I told her I would rather not hear anything about her relationship right now because it affects me to see her do this to herself.
She knows that what she's doing is pathetic but she's resigned to this. Nothing I can do anymore for her.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I'm Disappointed!

I can't believe how some people, especially women, allow others to walk all over them. I have a dear friend who lets her BF treat her like shit. She tried to break up with him pero siya rin ang nagmamakaawang bumalik, with matching apologies pa! Ilang beses na syang niloko, pinaglararuan at sinabihang ayaw na sya at ilang beses na nakipag break sa kanya, she would still ask him back! Where is your self esteem?!?!
Hindi ko napigilan sarili ko to say nasty words to her, paano para syang tanga!! I've gone through being tanga for love but she breaks every known record for katangahan! ARGH! Natatawa pa sya when she said nahihiya sya sa sarili nya then I told her wala ka naman hiya sa sarili mo kasi wala lang self respect. At ang gaga umoo! Punyeta talaga. Hehehe.
Some people have no sense of self worth. I've been through bad relationships but I knew when it was time to leave. I'm a very giving, loving and patient partner but I know when too much is too much. Maybe this is the reason why I'm still single, I won't settle for less, I won't let a man walk all over me.
Hay buhay!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Test of your brain capacity

Imagine you walked into a small hut by the river in the jungle. You pushed
open the door; in front of you there are 7 small beds to the right of the hut, and another 7 small chairs surrounding a small round table. In the middle of the table is a round food tray with 5 kinds of fruit in it.

Here are the choices:
a. apple
b. banana
c. strawberry
d. peach
e. orange

Which fruit will u choose?
Imagine the situation and just give it a thought...
Your choice reveals a lot of things about you!
Please scroll down!!!
Test results:
a. If you chose apple:
that means you are a person who loves to eat apple

b. If you chose banana:
that means you are a person who loves to eat banana

c. If you chose strawberry:
that means you are a person who loves to eat strawberry

d. If you chose peach:
that means you are a person who loves to eat peach

e. If you chose orange:
that means you are a person who loves to eat orange

Kakainis ano? Forward mo ito para makaganti ka!! Personally--gusto kong katayin yun gumawa nito...

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

I Can Let Go Now

by Michael McDonald

It was so right, it was so wrong
Almost at the same time
The pain and ache a heart can take
No one really knows

When the memories cling and keep you there
Till you no longer care
And you can let go now

It's wrong for me to cling to you
Somehow I just needed time
From what was to be-it's not like me
To hold somebody down

But I was tossed high by love
I almost never came down
Only to land here
Where love's no longer found
Where I'm no longer bound
And I can let go now

Friday, December 03, 2004

Lights, Camera, Relationship!

I'm not surprised his relationship is on the rocks. It was already rocky to start with. Imagine wala pa silang 1 month they were already bickering?! Wow! Wala na akong bilib sa kanya noon pa. A week after we started talking with him I could sense he is weak. If you are a man, you should not be going around talking about your relationship problems to all your friends, esp to us who do are practically strangers to your partner. It doesn't look nice, hindi gentleman ang ganon. If you need to talk then talk to someone you can trust, someone who can be neutral and could tell you your mistakes. Even when my ex and I were still a couple, I never talked to my friends about our problems, not even to my family. When we broke up they felt bad because they though I lost one great guy. It's not right that he looks bad to others when he cant even defend himself to them. This was before I knew about his kalokohan ok? Hehehe.
Still, when you are in a relationship, you don't go around saying the negative things about your partner to people who are close to you. They will have a different perception of your partner and when the time comes that you have to introduce your partner to your friends, iba na tingin nila sa kanya. Hindi mo na puwedeng bawiin yon, iba na tingin nila sa partner mo, kawawa naman siya.
All relationships have problems, no single relationship is perfect, no one is perfect. Just think if your BF was talking how immature you are to his friends, syempre they will take his side. They will think you really are immature diba? Yun pala you are like that because he is an asshole as a BF but not as a friend. Still ikaw ang masisira. Don pa lang, na turn off na ako sa kanya. I wanted to point this out to him but... I decided it's best not to meddle with someone's life. Matanda na sila, alam na nila ang tama at mali. Baka sabihin pakialamera pa ako. Hehehe.

If he is unhappy with her, then why is he still in that relationship?

Thursday, December 02, 2004


Inspite all the things that has happened to me, I consider myself lucky and blessed. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food on the table. I'm healthy and I have a functioning brain.
37 years. God has been good to me. I can't deny the blessings that have come my way. Even if I try to stop worshipping Him or even thinking about Him, still He protects me and showers me with His blessings.
I'm grateful for my parents and my siblings and my nephews and nieces. I'm grateful for having my family and relatives. I'm thankful that I am who I am after all that I've been through. I'm thankful for having my friends, the kind of friends that I have. I'm richly blessed!

7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, [1] you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

Psalm 139 7-10