Friday, December 30, 2005

Wisdom For The Ages?


Question: If you could live forever, would you and why?
Answer: "I would not live forever, because we should not
live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever,
then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever,
which is why I would not live forever."
Miss America 1995 from Alabama
Heather Whitestone

"Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids
all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love
to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and
death and stuff."
Popular Pop Singer
Mariah Carey

"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost
a very important part of your life,"
(During an interview to become
Spokesperson for federal anti-smoking campaign.)
Model, movie and TV actress
Brooke Shields

"I've never had major knee surgery on any other part
of my body,"
University of Kentucky Basketball Forward
Winston Bennett

"Outside of the killings, Washington has one of the
lowest crime rates in the country,"
Washington DC Mayor
Marion Barry

"I'm not going to have some reporters pawing through
our papers. We are the president."
(Commenting on the release of subpoenaed documents.)
First Lady and
Democratic Senator from New York
Hillary Clinton

"That lowdown scoundrel deserves to be kicked to death
by a jackass, and I'm just the one to do it,"
A congressional candidate in Texas

"Half this game is ninety percent mental."
Philadelphia Phillies' Manager
Danny Ozark

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's
the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
Vice President
Al Gore

"We are ready for any unforeseen event that
may or may not occur."
Vice President
Al Gore

"I love California. I practically grew up in Phoenix."
Vice President
Dan Quayle

"We've got to pause and ask ourselves,
How much clean air do we need?"
Chrysler Chairman and CEO
Lee Iacocca

"The word "genius" isn't applicable in football.
A genius is a guy like Norman Einstein."
NFL Quarterback and Sports Analyst
Joe Theisman

"We don't necessarily discriminate. We simply
exclude certain types of people."
ROTC Instructor
Colonel Gerald Wellman

"If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure."
Bill Clinton

"Traditionally, most of Australia's
imports come from overseas."
Keppel Enderbery

"Your food stamps will be stopped effective
March 1992 because we received notice that
you passed away. May God bless you. You may
reapply if there is a change in your circumstances."
Greenville , South Carolina
Department of Social Services

"If somebody has a bad heart, they can plug this jack
in at night as they go to bed and it will monitor their
heart throughout the night. And the next morning, when
they wake up dead, there'll be a record."
FCC Chairman
Mark S. Fowler

Feeling smarter yet?

Thursday, November 03, 2005

P3,000 Servant?

Why is it that some people think they own you just because they pay you for your services?

A mom sent me an sms asking me what time I'm going to the center. I told her I'm not sure if I would go since everyone is on vacation. She never responded. Then she sent a msg to my partner who forwared it to me. I asked her:

Isn't ur son on a vacation till Sun? R u thinking of having him tutored on sembreak? Walang tutorials kc this week kc sembreak, even teachers have breaks. :-)

To this she responded:

Yeah i know. But D holidays are only til yrtrday. Isnt dat enough break 4 d teachrs? S (her son's name) has a story 2 memorze and its due on wednsday.
Anywy, i'l just b d one 2 guide him. Tnx.
I was about to tell her "sige kita tayo early tomorrow" but when I took another look at her msg, I felt bad. She sent another msg saying I'm the only one who can make his son memorize stuff very well but I didn't want to react anymore. I wanted to say things that would definitely put her in her place but I had to control myself, my partner might suffer.

She has always been "demanding" but I would comply in my own little way to avoid problems. She acts and talks as if I'm cheating her by not doing some small things for her son or that I purposely disregard certain work para makapandaya ako. I would tell my partner baka sinusulit lang ang bayad nya kaya sya ganyan and we would both grin. But her message really set me off. Just because she pays me P3,000 to tutor her son, doesnt give her the right to treat me like a servant, hindi nya ako pinapalamon. I'm only human and I make mistakes at times, doesn't mean dinadaya ko sya sa serbisyong binibigay ko.

Well, if she can find a tutor who can give better service at a lower price than I do then she can always transfer her kid there.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Shotgun Project Gig

Shotgun Project Gig will be held at Corik's on Vito Cruz cor Chino Roces, Makati, near Shopwise. Brain Freeze will perform there. Show starts at 9 pm. Sat, Oct 22... Puwede raw maki jam.


Friday, September 30, 2005

Happy Birthday Handsome!

Happy birthday handsome!
To the prettiest, sweetest and nicest boyfriend any girl could ever have.
You know who you are.

Mr. Santos and his cat

Friday, September 09, 2005

Poison Letter

the following is a letter found at a certain bar in manila & has been preserved in its ORIGINAL, UNEDITED form. enjoy reading & you may try direct translation in tagalog. please read w/ feelings.---

Oct. 1996

To Marjie,

I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you. Why? What reason you can think about but you're very fat body. I thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later i'm realize that he really can't not beared or stomached to be with you anymore at first, Dennis say he could not stand your habit of making pakialam all his walks (lakad) and always calling to their house what he go home or this or that. And then he say he get ashame to met iether in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you're very, very, very fat body. But you hate it.Thoughth your the most preetiest girls he knows about. What do you think you are "Beautiful Girl" of Jose Marie Chan?

Even you are beautiful face (to your think) you do not have the right to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because i'm never call you names iether in front of Dennis or in the backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, i don't have any other choice but to call you other different name to. Like you are a PIG, FAT, OBESSED, OVERWIGHT, and UGLYSHAPE girl. Shame to you're body that is to a buding. You can't not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because i am the more sexier that you when you look to us in the mirror. I'm repeat again that you are like IKE LOZADA when she is a girl.

The Sexiest Girl of O.M.

P.S. you say that i'm the bad breathe but who is Dennis want to kissed. Me or you? You or me? And the final is me. There you go .

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Busy as a Bee

Hello po sa lahat.
I wasn't able to post on my blog for quite sometime kasi may diperensya ang aking PC. My PC would just shut down for no apparent reason. I've reformatted my HD twice this year hoping to fix the problem, wala pa rin. Akala ko naayos ko na but then yesterday bumalik na naman ang sakit. Haaayyy!
Kahit naman maayos PC ko hindi pa rin ako magkanda ugaga sa mga gawain dito sa bahay. Yes, umalis na ang aking maid na si Jogalyn, sya ang nakakita ng doppleganger ko. Akala ng marami umalis sya dahil sa mumu, aktuwali umalis sya kse miss nya makaniig ang asawa nya gabi gabi. Sabi ko nga baka buntis sya. Siguro si Tanggers kinikilig sa name ng ex-helper ko, Jogalyn. Sayang wala akong picpic nyang puwedeng ipakita sa inyo, para malaman nyo bakit sya binansagang Jogalyn. Malamang alam ni Tanggers kung bakit. Hehehe.
Nagsidatingan mga kamag anak from the province. 2 cousins are now staying with us since they are working here in Metro Manila. Yung isa lilipat pag nag start na ang training pero hindi nya alam kung kailan. Yung pinsan kong babae naman kaka start lang sa call center at wala naman syang ibang puwedeng puntahan na convenient para sa kanya na tirahan. Then the parents of these 2 cousins arrived 2 weeks ago, stayed here for a week. Ang kanilang tatay ay pumunta ng US para bisitahin ang kayang mga magulang. Logically dito sila titira dahil nandito ang dalawa nilang anak. Since walang katulong dito, tulong tulong kami ng tita ko sa gawain bahay.
Pero may mga changes pang nangyari.

May tutorial center na po ako.
Kakaumpisa ko lang officially July 19 with 1 student. Hehehe. Nagiisa pa lang student ko sa ngayon kaya wala akong income, puro out ang pera ko. Huhuhu. Actually, meron 2 possible students kaso mahirap mga kaso nila dahil kinder 2 pa lamang sila eh marami na silang academic load at problems. Kung ako lang masusunod, I would rather not take on students in pre-school till grade 1. But the Lord has an odd sense of humor, He likes to give me what I've been trying to avoid since I've started tutoring. He gave me a grade 1 student, who is fine naman, plus a kinder 2 student who seems to be spaced out most of the time and I might have another kinder 2 student who has problems writing and seems to be hard headed according to the mom. Haayyy! Buti na lang nasa Pilipinas ako. My mom's friend Lani, who is a pre-school teacher in Texas, told me her stories. Hirap daw talaga magturo sa mga Amerikano. Alam ko, I once had a tutee na kano, muntik na akong mag walk out sa partuturo sa kanya.

Magpapasalamat lang ako sa mga pang post ng comments at nag tag sa shoutbox ko, mga naghanap sa akin na para aking nawawalang baboy sa koral hehehe: Helltracker, MommyBa, Char, Ka Uro, Teacher Sol, Senorito<-Ako, MEC, Melissa, Russ, Watson, Hany-nany, Hanagirl, Dr.Emer, Kitty, Ate Sienna, Tanggero, Miatot, Duke.

Btw, advance happy bday to Hanagirl, is it on the 27th or 28th?
Trishaaaaa I think the event is an entire August thing, check the night time sky from 10pm till 12:30am. The encounter will culminate on August 27th. Abangan mo na!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Mars (Mark your calendars, a "One Time Event!")


The Red Planet is about to be spectacular!

This month and next, Earth is catching up with Mars in an encounter that
will culminate in the closest approach between the two planets in
recorded history. The next time Mars may come this close is
in 2287. Due to the way Jupiter's gravity tugs on
Mars and perturbs its orbit, astronomers can only be
certain that Mars has not come this close to Earth
in the Last 5,000 years, but it may be as long as
60,000 years before it happens again.

The encounter will culminate on August 27th when
Mars comes to within 34,649,589 miles of Earth and
will be (next to the moon) the brightest object in
the night sky. It will attain a magnitude of -2.9
and will appear 25.11 arc seconds wide. At a modest
75-power magnification

Mars will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye

Mars will be easy to spot. At the
beginning of August it will rise in the east at

and reach its azimuth at about 3 a.m.

By the end of August when the two planets are
closest, Mars will rise at nightfall and reach its
highest point in the sky at 12:30a.m. That's pretty
convenient to see something that no human being has
seen in recorded history. So, mark your calendar at
the beginning of August to see Mars grow
progressively brighter and brighter throughout the

Share this with your children and grandchildren.



A woman who seeks to be equal with men lacks ambition!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Astral Projection or Sign of Impending Doom?

At around 6:30 PM, I stood up from my table and left what I was doing just to check my messages. I saw 2 new messages and as I was about to open one, our maid gave me a missed call. I thought she had an urgent request to make so I checked her message first. She said something like: "Ate akala ko ba aalis ka, nandito ka lang pala. Ano gusto mo lutin ko for dinner?" I found her message strange so I immediately called up the house. As soon as she realized that she was talking to me, she was surprised. She found it weird I was calling her at home when I was at home. I told her I left for work at 2:40PM so I can't be at home right now. "Huuuuu! Si ate naman niloloko ako. Nakita lang kita kanina kumuha ng tubig tapos umakyat ka na sa kuwarto mo eh. San ka ba talaga?" I insisted I was at work. She freaked out. "Ate nakita kita ngayon ngayon lang kaya ng ako nag text sa iyo. Naka puting t-shirt ka, kumuha ka pa nga ng tubig tapos umakyat ka eh! Wag mo akong bibiruin ng ganyan. Kinikilabutan ako!" I told her that she was probably dreaming, namamalik mata lang sya or that she saw me earlier but thought it was later. I got goosebumps while I was talking to her. "Hindi puwedeng kanina pa yon. Pagkakita ko sa iyo nag text agad ako at nag miss call para makapagluto na ako eh. Naku ate, mag iingat ka sa pag uwi mo! Kinikilabutan ako!" So I told her to open all the lights in the house and then stay at my aunt's place till someone arrives. I arrived home around 10:30 PM, she was awakened by the noises I was making in the kitchen. She went out and when she saw me I told her, "Ako talaga ito, hindi multo." She gave a nervouse laugh and told me exactly what happened. She described the same clothes I was wearing. Althought she ironed my shirt that morning, she didnt see me leave the house and see me in the exact same clothes when I left. She said that she saw me take my drink from the fridge then turned to leave the kitchen then went upstairs to my room. She even heard my footfalls. I told her she probably saw her tita who just passed away and she even went to the lamay that night kaya puyat sya and seeing things. She said it wasnt her tita she saw, she had enough sleep in the afternoon and it had been hours after she woke up when she saw me. I asked her if she saw me at the corner of her eye, she said she turned to look at me and she saw me but she didnt see my face.
This morning, I went to visit my aunt who lives next door. She told me at once that some 2 weeks ago she saw me, at around 7-7:30 AM having breakfast in the kitchen. Then she went out with her daughter and she also saw me in the living room going towards the altar. She was able to see me through the windows kasi walang kurtina sa buong bahay, general cleaning kasi. She kinda shouted at me saying, "Bukas pa ang ilaw nyo dito sa harap," so I would turn off the night light outside. She found it strange that I didnt respond to her or acknowledge her. A few minuntes later she saw that our light was still on. She thought that maybe I didnt hear what she said. She brushed this off as nothing. She only realized now how strange it was that it seemed I was in 2 places at the same time and that I didn't acknowledge her comment. She said got goosebumps as she the maid told her the story and kinda got some weird feeling that this happened 2 times already, "Bakit ikaw?" she asked. I said "Baka malapit na akong mamatay?" to which her respose was , "Oo nga!" I laughed because she seems convinced that these were signs that something bad was going to happen to me.
Prayers, mass offering, incense burning are some of the "tips" concerned people gave me to avert whatever bad thing's supposed to happen to me. Nakakatamad hehehe. I guess if it's my time to go then it's my time to go.

Advance goodbye to everyone, till next lifetime?

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Boracay Sunset

Boracay Sunset
Originally uploaded by fionski.

Good thing I was able to catch the Boracay sunset. The sun was setting quite fast.

The sunset is almost gone...

Very quiet.
Very calm.
Very serene.
The sunset here signifies the end of summer and start of the rainy season, start of school...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

A Woman's Prayer

Prayer, originally uploaded by fionski.

For all the ladies in the house. I'm sure you will like this. Got this from Au.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

She Comes First, Then Again And Again...

I've been keeping an eye on a friend of mine, giving her love life a close watch. Her BF treated her badly and she never enjoyed having sex with him. He even told her point blank that she's a poor lay. She couldnt break up with him because of her poor self esteem, her life revolved around him. How many times has it happened that he broke up with her but he begged him back? Finally they cooled off for a few months. This gave her time to think.
One day she started going out with this guy who has been hounding her. She gave in. To make the long story short, she now knows how an orgasm feels, what it's like to have a man give her pleasure. I asked her if she was required by this guy to do anything for him in return, she said the guy just wanted her to relax and recieve pleasure from him and not do anything. Now she can't stop thinking about him and what he has done to her. She saw this alleged video of Heart Evangelista and it reminds her of what she did, how she moaned and groaned with pleasure, how she gripped his arms as he was giving it to her.
Last night she had to excuse herself after telling me her story because she needed to take a shower kasi mainit raw katawan niya. I teased her, told her how to touch herself while in the shower and she got even hotter and more bothered. Hehehe.
I told her that her lover apparently knows how to make love to her. He knows how to make a woman feel good starting from foreplay to afterplay. I told her that once she's tried great sex, she's never going back to lousy sex again. She's a bit worried because she feels her BF might want her back and she doesn't know what to do: if she should take him back, if and when that happens how to explain to him her new sexual apetite, and of course what to do with her new lover. She wants more of that mind boggling, titirik ang mata mo sa sarap sex. Hahaha!

Ka Uro, hindi naman po lahat ng Pinoy bad in bed so don't worry I believe you. Pero tanungin ko kaya si Mrs. Uro just to be sure? Hehehe.

MEC well Pinoys are great romancers, malambing, magaling mag woo ng babae. But in bed ewan ko lang. I guess culture has something to do with this. My friend Tekla has her own way of describing most Pinoy lovers. Using both hands she would point to her mouth meaning kissing, then point to her breast for some breast play, finally point sa baba, sa keps for dyug na. Systematic daw mga Pinoy: 1, 2, 3 tapos na. Hehehe.
If you consider yourself a primadonna in bed and still get what you want then you are indeed lucky! Your man knows how to please you, your needs cum first. *wink*

hany_nany I read this guy's blog. He's got 4 blogs: 1 about techie stuff, 1 about the news he reads, 1 about is sexual preference and 1 about funny sex bits. I saw his post about the book so I decided to share this bit of info here. I enjoy his blogs and I like the way he writes esp about sex and his sexual preference. He is pansexual btw.

Monday, May 23, 2005

She Comes First

Everyone should read this book by Ian Kerner She Comes First: The Thinking Man’s Guide to Pleasuring a Woman. I still have to read the book. I heard it's been getting rave reviews from a lot of people: from the New York Times to some feminist clubs.

From what I've read so far, this book is about Ian's quest to make a woman cum first. He apparently has become good at giving oral service that he's made a book out of it. I hope Filipino men would read this. A lot of Pinoys are really bad when it comes to sex, and a lot of Pinays are not aware that sex should be pleasurable for them, not a task or obligation.

Here is an excerpt from the book:
When describing sex in the proverbial locker-room, men tend to employ the language of penetration—— adjectives like "hard" and "deep." We go in, we extricate: as though pleasure was something buried deep inside her womb, a nugget to be rammed, jostled and liberated with the powerful male tool.
Rare is the man who says, "I made love to her as subtly and lightly as a feather"; "I grazed her vulva as with the delicate wings of a butterfly"; "I barely touched her she came so hard!"
And yet such language would be more appropriate, as the inner two-thirds of the vagina are substantially less sensitive than the outer third.
Numerous studies have demonstrated that women whose lovers give them direct clitoral stimulation during sexual activity are more likely to climax consistently. But because of its location, most sexual positions do not properly stimulate the clitoris. As Shere Hite concluded, "Sex provides efficiently for male orgasm, and inefficiently for female orgasm."
Read more: She Comes First, New York Metro, Mail & Guardian Online

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Am I Dominant or Submissive?

strong domme tendecies
You have strong domme tendencies. You are or could
be the prime orchestrator in the bedroom. You
are in control; consistent, straightforward and
respectful.I pity the worthless Miss Nobodys
who dare disobey your direct orders.

Are you Dominant or Submissive?
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Friday, May 06, 2005

To Blu

Last Sunday's My Favorite Line on Philippine Star caught my eye. It's from The Breakup Diaries by Maya Calica:

"At some point you will learn that no matter how hard you play by the rules, make all the right moves, and try to be the Ms. Perfect, you don't always get the results you hope for."

My cuz and I discussed how we prayed for the right man to come into our lives but we still got duds. I remember asking for signs that would make me realize that he's not the one, but I was blinded by love, there were signs yet I refused to see them. There was one time I prayed that if he and I were not meant to be then the Lord would find a way out for me from the relationship and that He would remove the love that I felt for him. The Lord did find a way out for me but removing the love I felt was hard. I still ended up accepting him inspite of all the things he did to me. Then when he lied to me again I was mad at the Lord for letting him back into my life. I blamed Him for introducing him to me in the first place.

Funny, when you're in that position, you refuse to see the truth. I knew then that by praying this way, I won't get the right answer. But I kept praying this way, still hoping my prayer would work. You know what's wrong with this prayer? By asking God to give you the "right man" or showing you "signs" or asking Him to do things for you, you are saying "God, I don't want to be responsible for my palpak choices so I leave everything up to You. If something goes wrong, hindi ko kasanalan ok?" We may not say thing verbatim but this is really what we want to happen: we don't want to be responsible for our actions.

Being Godly, or religious or prayerfull or spiritual doesn't make anyone of us better or won't spare us from making the wrong choices or getting hurt by other people. God has given all of us free will, so we would make our own decisions. We have the capacity to make the right choices, to do what's best for us. Of course we are allowed to make mistakes, we are only human. Yun lang, praying or being a good girl doesn't guarantee us a happy life. Specially if we think good things will happen to us by doing good deeds.

We have people around us who support us and give us a different perspective of things, but we don't want to listen to them because we think they don't want us to be happy. When someone gives us a valuable piece of advice, if it doesn't feel good or it doesn't fit the picture we see through our rose colored spectacles, we dismiss it as paninira or unimportant.
How many times have I tried to warn you na duda ako sa kanya? Hindi ba when your sister gave you a piece of advice nagalit ka and you said she doesnt understand you and she doesnt want you to be happy? Natangsit ka gamin. I told you not to get intouch with him anymore but you did. You called him up and what did he do to you? He hung up on you and he kept rejecting your call. I don't want to have to say to you "I told you so..."

You know why the same thing happened to both of us? To teach us a lesson, to open our eyes. Dasal tayo ng dasal pero hindi naman natin binubuksan mga mata natin sa katotohanan at wala naman tayong ginagawa to make things right. There were signs but we refused to accept them since these signs were telling us what we didn't want to know, they were telling us of impending doom that we couldn't accept, so we had to suffer. Sabi ni Lord, "Ayaw mo makinig? Puwes, magdusa ka!" Tough love works for us because we are stubborn. We learn things the hard way.

I hope may natutunan ka sa nangyari sa iyo. I know I sound like making sermon but I just want you to learn this now, I'm afraid he might show up and ask you back tapos tanggapin mo sya. Mahihirapan ka lang. Don't make the same mistakes I made. You might end up tough and bitter.

No Man is worth a womans tears. The only one whos worth her tears is the one who knows he could but would never, ever make her cry.

Friday, April 29, 2005

Online Daters Beware!

This article is somewhat close to my heart. The story of the woman here is kinda familiar, I know a man who lies to women online and is from VA. Read on.

by Sherry Amatenstein

The Internet dating stigma no longer exists, and it's about time. But just because looking for love online is more mainstream, that doesn't mean you should let your guard down completely. After all, it may be easier to meet that special someone -- but it's also easier to be deceived by someone else's special someone masquerading as a bachelor. How can you avoid falling for a married man's cyber line? And what are the warning signs that the guy on the other end of the cute emails is otherwise engaged? Take note of these tips.

Cybersex, Lies and Video Tape

Jill Jones discovered the hard way that the boyfriend she'd met three months earlier through was married: His wife called! Jill, a 27-year-old Washington, DC, marketing executive explains, "Since he lived in a different city -- Roanoke, Virginia -- it was easy for him to sneak around." She says, "Although he made excuse after excuse about why he continually had to cancel a date at the last minute -- one time claiming he'd been in a car accident -- I got suspicious only after I knew everything." There had been numerous red flags. For instance, he only called from his cell phone while driving in his car. It turns out that Joe (not his real name) was talking to several women online. According to his wife, Jill was the only one he'd actually met and kissed. [Editors' note: Awkward conversation, anyone?] Jill recalls, "He contacted me a few weeks after he was busted and said how much he cared for me and that his marriage was on the rocks. Blah, blah, blah. I hung up."

I hope MarkD is reading this.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Cerridwen Update

G was discharged early this morning, Pinas time. I got an sms from her on her way to her sister's place. I guess the doctors at the hospital think she's out of danger and home care is all she needs. I sure hope so. She drifts in and out of sleep because of the pain killers she has to take. Bangenge nga raw siya minsan kaya mahirap kausapin, sometimes she's in a good mood, sometimes she's not. I tried to make her laugh by telling her I need to get my stone back from our friend Isko so I cant shout "Darna!" and fly to her to look after her. She laughed but it was pretty painful. Hehehe.
I think naipit siya sa kotse that's why she has broken ribs and a gash near the face. Just thinking about her in crushed in between twisted metal makes me want to faint!
It's good that her sister Gracey and Nanay are there to watch over her. Unfortunately, Gracey doesn't have a landline.

I would like to thank all the people who posted on my blog, sent me an email, sent me a YM IM. To beybikulet, watson, metal, ajay, mommyba, tanggero, ate sienna, jet, romesez, your kind words of support and prayers will help uplift G's spirit.
I'm sure there are also those who sent a short, silent prayer for her, those who didn't say anything but in their hearts wished her well, thank you.
The loving energy, big or small, that you send her way would reach her and make her feel better, and whatever good you have done will return to you 10-fold.

You may post your kind words on her blog for her to read.

On behalf of G and her family, thank you very much!

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Cerridwen News

Gracey just told me that G met an accident last Friday. She's in bad shape and she's lucky she survived. Here is an exerpt of my convo with Gracey:
me : musta ate mo? nagtanan na ba?
gracey : nka auto log on pla yahoo nya may nag msg cguro tagal d nag online ate
gracey : nde na aksidente sa ospital pa
me : tagal ko nga sya di nakita
gracey : pro bka bukaw lumabas
me : what??? ano nangyar??
gracey : bukas
gracey : tanga dun sa pamldale yung mexicano binunggo yung kotse sa tabi ng ate ang ate papasok ng kotse nya naipit ate
me : syet!
gracey : broken ribs concussion dislocated shoulder saka nasugatan un face
me : kaya pala... nagtetext ako sa kanya di sumasagot... nag aaalala na nga ako
me : punyemes!!!!
gracey : eh alang signal yata dun sa palmdale cell nya
gracey : uwi ako 2 get her clothes
gracey : friday ng gabi nangyari eh
me : sige... at least she's doing better now
gracey : yug matanda nga nadedo
gracey : yung tinamaan talaga
me : sinong matanda? yung mexicano?
gracey : nde yung nabangga na katabi ng kotse nya
me : grabe!
gracey : kaso nga d2 kc kung pwede lang pauwiin ang pasyente pagka opera pauuwiin eh
me : oonga
gracey : gusto sna nmin dun muna c ate kaso sabi ng doctor home care pwede na
me : pero safe na ate mo?
me : wala naman danger?
gracey : oo hirap lang sya humnga kc broken ribs eh
gracey : nka plaster yung dibdib

gracey : yung ulo nga may tahi
me : hay grabe!
gracey : sa likod ng tenga yata
me : :-(
gracey : medyo naghihilo pero ok nman sya
me : punta ako dyan alagaan ko sya hehehe
gracey : oo ngabiro pa eh
gracey : ayaw daw sya tlaga tanggapin pa mamatay
gracey : eh sabi ng pulis swerte nya talaga naguhay sya
gracey : kasi ipit talaga

Yung mga nasa US na friends ni G, nasa Palmdale daw sya. I don't know exactly where, wala yatang signal don. If you have the chance please try to get intouch with her. She will be staying with Gracey for a while. It's a good thing Gracey and Nanay are there. She's a bit groggy from the meds but the doctor said she'll be fine.
We are praying for her speedy recovery.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

A Woman's Prayer

For my single friends...

As I close my eyes and open my soul in prayer
To ask for the one who will bring me joy,
I ask that he will be strong enough to hold me when I am weak
And gentle enough to wipe the tears from my eyes.
Let my cheek fit perfectly in the crook of his neck
So when he embraces me we are two pieces of a puzzle complete.
Make his smile at the sound of my voice to make me believe
That I am the only woman on earth.
Make him handsome and winning, give him a sense of humor
So he can make me laugh when I feel like crying,
And give him the sensitivity to protect me
Even from the imaginary creatures that haunt me.
Make him unafraid to show the child inside of him.
When he enters a room, let him be graceful yet masculine.
Let him shine, even if only in my eyes.
Give him the intelligence to speak to my mind, my heart and my soul.
Let his words and his love enter my being like a food to a starving soul.
Give him a gentle touch, a strong voice and a loving embrace.
Let him love my mother and father as his own
And let them love him as their son.
Allow his shoulders to be wide enough to carry
The burdens of the wicked world, with a good heart and an understanding soul.
Give him a direction and ambition and give him the initiative
To freely seek that which he desires and needs in this life.
Let him accept me for who I am, and yet
Let him point out my mistakes while conceding that he is not perfect.
Make him considerate, even when others are not watching.
Make him my friend first, and a lover second.
But most of all, let him embrace my God, as I know how to embrace Him.
Make him unashamed to turn to Him in joyous moments and in sad.
Let us be reborn in Him a single soul encompassing two bodies,
And let us love Him in peaceful harmony.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Yahoo 360

I forgot to thank Mari for inviting me to join Yahoo 360. She saw my comment on PinoyBlog. Thanks Mari! Image

Lordstein is my first invited friend. Image

Yahoo 360 reminds me of Multiply with a dash of Msn Spaces, it copied Orkut's by "invitation only" strategy. Multiply has the same content as 360 but it doesn't come with a portal. Both 360 and Spaces are social networking features of portals, Orkut is sort of Google's counterpart, Friendster has its own world. I do like Friendster and Orkut's privacy feature, limiting who can view your profile. Spaces has it's own privacy feature too, you can choose the people who can view your Space but it doesn't have th social networking feature.

360 is still in beta, I'm sure Yahoo will be adding more features to this.


Saturday, April 16, 2005

Wonderful Wild Women

I was clicking on blog links when I found this. What caught my eye was this particular post:

Submission: A Woman's Touch...

It was heightened by watching "Kissing Jessica Stein". It's a movie about a fairly straight-laced woman ending up in a lesbian relationship. What sent me over the top was her partners description about how kissing another woman is different. Something about how she said everything was so much softer got me thinking.

I made out with two women in August. I'm ready for another go at it. Soft kisses melting into harder more intense kisses. Sucking each others nipp.. (Some parts deleted, not for young audience!)

It's true! There is something different about a woman's kiss... Why is it that women's lips are softer and nicer to kiss? Why are men's lips harder and they kiss a bit harsher? Looking at two women kissing is erotic while look at two men making out would be...!!!

Remember how her kiss tasted, her lips were delicate and small, and the inside of her mouth was warm and wet and soft...

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Modern Chinese Proverbs

Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone.

Man who run in front of car get tired.

Man who run behind car get exhausted.

Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.

Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ.

Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok.

Man with one chopstick go hungry.

Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.

Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.

Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.

Panties not best thing on earth! But next to best thing on earth.

War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.

Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.

Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.

It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.

Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.

Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.

Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.

Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.

Man who fart in church sit in own pew.

Crowded elevator smell different to midget.

Got this from Vincent Monreal

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

A Tragic Love Story

They met online, via IRC in the late 90's. What they had is what we call a long distance chat/internet relationship: she was here in the Philippines, he was in Australia. This is the story of Laura and Clancy.
Ilang beses din silang naghiwalay. I heard that he even had other GFs after they split up a few times. I think she also had another BF. One story I heard about their love affair was that when they broke up once and he found another GF, he decided to come here to meet this new GF. The new GF went all the way to the airport to fetch him then she took him to his hotel. At the hotel, Laura arrived. Nagkagulo. How did Laura know he's coming and where he's staying? It's pretty obvious Clancy told Laura the details of his trip. So what happened next? Clancy had to choose, but new GF walked out on him. It's pretty obvious their relationship hasn't really ended and that he will choose his old GF.
Years later, a chatmate of mine, whom I haven't spoken to in a while told me the sad news. She wanted me to read the email of Laura. From her email I saw nagkatuluyan din pala sila after all these years of away-bati. They tied the knot September 2004, then they found out Clancy had liver cancer October. He passed away November. Tragic...
I don't know it this is true, if it is then I feel for Laura.

"Deep inside, I was not sorry he came into my life, I was sorry he had to leave... I realized that God never took him away from me. He never even gave him to me in the first place... The tears will still fall once in awhile. I know I will still think about him, but this time, not with anger or hatred, but with precious thoughts of the things we shared. And the pace and the love that I feel, these are the things that no one can ever measure."

Monday, April 04, 2005

Crazy Over You.

Itong background music ko ngayon, narinig ko sa isang blog, I forget which one hehehe. Anyway, eversince I heard this song, paulitulit na tumutugtog sa aking isipan so I decide to use this as background music for a few days.
Makabagbag damdaming Crazy Over You...

Friday, April 01, 2005

Ang Cheap!

I just want to share some bargain airfaires my brother in law Erwin shared with me. G knows this too:

Tigerairways is a Singapore based airlines that offers trips within Asia. Airfare (one way) can get as low as P331.00. Yun lang walang food and drinks, bawal din magpasok sa plane ng food and drinks, one has to buy his eats on the plane. They will only allow passengers to bring a bottle of water with them. My companion Stan took a Tigerairways plane to Bangkok. Since he checked in an hour before the flight, he got the tira-tira seat. On his way back to SG he made sure he checked in early. Tigerair lands only in Clark in Pampanga so Pinoys would have to go all the way to Clark just to get the cheap fare. And booking has to be done online to avail of the offer, I dont think they have an office in Manila, at least not that I know of since their website lacks content necessary to give you all the info you would need. I guess Tigerair is still a baby airlines.

Airasia is a Malaysian airlines, its website is a bit more comprehensive than Tigerair. The fares are higher than that of Tigerair but a lot lower than other airlines. From Clark to Kota Kinabalu or Kuala Lumpur one way costs about P1,799.00. Not bad huh? A trip to Boracay costs P6,000.00. round trip. They have lots of trips to different places in Asia. Booking is also done online. Airasia is probably older than Tigerair.

Of course one should read the fine print at the bottom of the page. Prevailing terms and condtions like taxes and other fees, booking dates, etc. A credit card is necessary to do the booking.

Hay naku! I thought I was bitten just by the lovebug, it seems I was bitten by the travel bug too! I wanna do more travelling!
G, let's go to Bali! Hehehe.

Monday, March 21, 2005

A Rock Feels No Pain

by John Fischer

I was going through my old emails and I found this one, a daily devotional piece. Although this devotional was written in the "Christian" context, it makes practical sense in the romantic context. This is one of the things I sort of re-affirmed to myself when I took that 3 week hiatus.
Those who are afraid to love again, please read on.

The popular singing duo, Simon and Garfunkel, had a song early in their career that defiantly asserted individuality and an exaggerated aversion for relationships. In this song the singer talks about being a fortress unto himself, distaining love and laughter, and having no need for friendship. Hiding away in his room with his books and poetry to protect him, he isolates himself from all human relationships because he has identified those relationships as the cause of all his emotional pain. He is a rock and an island—alone to himself in the world.

The philosophy of the song hinges on the words: “If I never loved I never would have cried.” It’s all about protecting oneself from being hurt by removing oneself from what one perceives to be the source of the pain. I think we can all understand these feelings having been hurt by relationships and finding, even for a season, a certain consolation in being alone. But I think we also would agree that isolation is never the answer to this kind of pain. To love anyone is to be vulnerable and open to being hurt. Love and pain go together, and the only true answer to this dilemma is to welcome both.

Love costs. Think of what Christ paid when he embraced us. Think of the pain the Son of Man endured in loving a lost and wayward humanity.

Love is never without pain. When you sign on to a relationship you sign on to being hurt. Count on it. But who wants the other option?
C.S. Lewis once wrote about a place where one can be free from the “perturbations” of love. (Perturbation, by the way, is the state of being perturbed.) That place is one’s COFFIN. Can’t argue with that. Nothing can get through to you there. So Simon and Garfunkel and C.S. Lewis agree: There is a place you can be safe from the painful aspects of being in relationship with others, but who wants it?

What would make Christ go through what He went through for us? Love and all the rewards it brings in warmth, companionship, fellowship and joy.
Nothing brings more meaning to life than love. True love is what God is, and what we were made to know with Him and with each other. Because of what Christ accomplished on the cross, the pain of love will one day be gone. And even now, we can experience its victory.

So what will it be? The high cost and vulnerability of love, or the loneliness of isolation? A rock feels no pain, and an island never cries. But a son or a daughter knows a warm place in the family of God.
It’s important to know your options.

John Fischer is an author, speaker, and song writer based in Southern California. His latest book, Love Him in the Morning has been released by Revell Publishing

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I'm Back and Bad!

I'm back and bad! Hehehe!
I have some stuff I would like to share everyone but I can't seem to do anything right now because my mind is still on vacation. I'm still adjusting to the heat and the sleeping habits and the eating habits I got used to doing for 3 weeks. Haaayy! Para akong baboy na kakatayin.
I would like to thank everyone who wished me well, who posted comments on my blog, who sent me sms every now and then:
G (sent me sms all the time just to check if I'm alive hehehe)
Huseng Busabos
Chicay who also sent me sms to keep me updated

Isang pampagana:
Q. Why does a penis have a hole in the end?
A. So men can be open minded.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Where to?

San ba ako punta? Dyan lang sa tabi tabi, soul searching kuno kse nawawala yata kaluluwa ko. Hehehe.
I need some time off from my responsibilities here at home and hopefully I'd be able to take care of myself this time.
I feel that I've been misjudged by my family and they have trivialized my role and responsibilities. I'm thinking if I leave for a while, they would see what I've done for this family. Not that I'm seeking praise from them, just a simple form of acknowledgement lang, not even a thank you. Some people have conveniently dumped their responsibilities on me and now I'm taking crap for it. Sheesh!
I also need this time off to figure out what's really happening to me and hopefully I'd know what to do with my life. I think I have used my responsibilities at home as a convenient excuse not to pursue my goals, or maybe use it as a reason to fail at my personal plans. I'm slowly starting to see clearly now, I should give ME the time.
Lastly, this vacation will be some sort of risk taking exercise for me, I'm taking another leap of faith. This is kinda unnerving for me since I've done this before and I fell flat on my face. I had a hard time picking up the pieces of my life for a while. I hope that this time around, I'd have something waiting to catch me when I jump. It's scary because I might get stood up again but if I don't take the risk now then how would I know, right? I'm 37, I need to know what my options are. If I stay at home all day, nothing good will come out of it. Blessings won't fall from the roof and onto my lap. Tapos na mourning ko, I've washed my face and combed my hair, now I'm ready to face the world again.
Thanks Mari, Arrow-N and G. Hope the best for you guys too. Till next blog entry!

Ready or Not

6 weeks have passed and I feel not ready for what's about to happen to me. I've been preparing for the trip but I still havent made reservations, and I just realized yesterday that I over spent and I don't have money anymore.
Last night I remembered my past, how I was treated, how I was made a fool. All the negative thoughts and emotions started flooding me. No wonder I've been so negative about this coming event in my life, I've been programmed to expect the worst that's why I've been resisting the good that's about to happen, i.e. if there is really something good about to happen.
Heaven help me.

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Kapag ang Palay Naging Bigas, May Bumayo" Sequels

In the tradition of "Kapag ang Palay Naging Bigas, May Bumayo", here
are some more *classic* Filipino movie titles:

1. Kapag ang halaman naging puno, may sumibak

2. Kapag ang tahong bumuka, may sumipsip

3. Kapag ang tulya nabasa, may dumila

4. Kapag ang manok tumilaok, may lumunok

5. Kapag ang mani nangamoy, may bumaboy

6. Kapag ang itlog pumutok, may pumitik

7. Kapag ang bibingka nagka-niyog, may kumayod

8. Kapag ang mani umiinit, may mapupunit

9. Kapag ang talong sumulong, may pumatong

10. Kapag ang pinya nagka-katas, may tumabas

11. Kapag ang papaya ang ibiniyaya, may liligaya

12. Kapag ang pasas tumigas, may humimas

13. Kapag ang ibon nagka-pugad, may alagad

14. Kapag ang tuba naging suka, may sumawsaw

15. Kapag ang damo nakalbo, may umararo

16. Kapag ang mani namaga, may nag-laga

17. Kapag ang tiyan nagka-bukol, may pumalakol

18. Kapag ang mata tumirik, may tumurok

19. Kapag si Inday umaray, may sumakay

20. Kapag ang ahas tumuka, may bubukaka

21. Kapag ang butas hindi madulas, may minamalas

22. Kapag ang monay nilamas, magugulo ang balbas

23. Kapag ang penoy inamoy, sasaya si Manoy

24. Kapag ang bibingka may itlog, espesyal (wala lang).

25. Kapag ang buhok magulo, B^LB*L!

This one's for you G!

Thursday, February 17, 2005


Found this on Yahoo's daily wire service. Interesting! I wonder what I would post here if I were to post at all?

Monday, February 14, 2005

A Happy Valentine's Day

Originally uploaded by fionski.

People, allow me to gloat and enjoy my VD this year.
Last year I was depressed, my doctor told me I had the classic symptoms of depression. From December to Febuary I was down in the dumps. My favorite past time then was sleeping inside my brother's room during the daytime, keep the lights off, TV on but on mute.
This year, my Christmas and New Year celebration were relatively happier, I had peace of mind and heart. Valentine's Day is even more special. Last time I got flowers on VD was in the mid 90s and from my female students. I don't remember getting anything from any of my past boyfriends. Last time a guy gave me flowers was on my birthday, Dec 2001. I got 12 long stemmed roses, ordered via the internet. Someone from chat sent it to me. Unfortunately, we were never meant to be.
This year is special. Right after chatting with S, I got a call from the flowershop asking for directions. S sent me flowers!!! 1 dozen long stemmed roses with chocolates and a cute teddy bear. The card was simple, only "happy valentine's day" was written there. Kilig ako!
Thanks S! You made my VD very special, you made me feel very special.


Record Breaking Kisses!

I watched Korina Sanchez's TV show last night, she featured Lovapalooza 2. Aliw ako! I saw all kinds of people kissing, even really old people on wheelchairs started to kiss at the stroke of 12 midnight.
I saw all kinds of couples kissing and all kinds of kisses. Some were as simple as a peck or a
smack on the lips that lingered for 10 secs, some were as passionate as tongue rolling kisses! I saw one couple's tongue moving in and out of their mouths as they were kissing. That was a bit unnerving. Some where really into the kissing while others were there just to help break the world record. I think it's cute!

Philippines may have broken the world record! Got this news bit from inq7:

MORE than 5,000 Filipino couples kissed simultaneously for 10 seconds to welcome Valentine's Day and set a new world record, organizers said Saturday.

Organizers of the "Lovapalooza" in Manila, an attempt to break the record for most people kissing simultaneously in one area, said 5,122 smooching couples broke the old record set by 4,500 couples in the Chilean capital Santiago last year.

Atienza had said the kissing event would be restricted to married couples, because of the Philippines' conservative Roman Catholic culture, but a casual check of participants found many of them were not married.

I don't want to be a wet rag but I think it's best to have legit couples at the Lovapalooza kissing. No one wants to see his/her partner kissing someone else on TV!

Who wants to join me at the Lovapalooza 3 next year?

Happy VD everyone!!! May you have more VDs to come!!!

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Classic Cameraphone

Latest cellphone view Remember this phone? This is the latest in cameraphone technology. May cam kana, may phone ka pa!

If you're wondering which type of camphone I used to take my pics (in my previous entry), I used a limited edition camphone. It has the old yet classic look of a telephone and camera combined, with the features of the latest in cellphone technology. See for yourself:


Remember, limited edition lang ito! What are you waiting for? If you want to look as intriguing and seductive as me (in my pics) then order now! Post your orders here! Our friendly operators are standing by to take your calls/emails. We accept cash, check and major credit cards.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005


Originally uploaded by fionski.

All pics here are taken with the use of my camphone. I like the effect of Chiaroscuro in my pics.


Chiaroscuro is the play of light and shade. I remember this term from my Humanities 1 class, my teacher's name's Cherry(she didn't want to be called Miss or Ma'am). We used Art, Man and Nature as reference. Senti ako! Hehehe.

same date

I adjusted this one, auto level thingy. The effect of the play of light and shade is still evident here. Just don't look at my background. Hahaha!

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Sex and Consequence - Hopefully The Final Chapter

I saw her online last week, a big sigh of relief! At least I know she's fine. She said she's fine, the D&C went well but she's now US $820 poorer plus airfare. She went on telling me how hard it was to be naglilihi and that she was able to talk to Dindo before she left for Singapore. She said, "Dindo said he's was willing to take responsibility and was willing to support me and the kid. I know naman daw how he feels abt me."
"How does he feel about you?" I asked.
"Ay, nagprofess ng undying love, " she said.
"He loves you?"
She added, "Yan ang sabi ng lolo mo. Sabi ko kelan mo napagtanto yan? Matagal na raw, sabi ko parang hindi ko naramdaman."
"He professed his undying love after this incident? Hehehehe!" I sniggered at the thought.
"You may have told me how you feel about me eh naitanong mo ba saken how I feel about you? Tanong sya how i feel abt him daw, sabi ko not nearly enough for me to want to keep this baby! Nagulantang siya." Apparently, she has no feelings for Dindo and had no felt no remorse for terminating the life in her womb.
Then she went on with her story, how she had a hard time after her D&C, it felt like she was having major PMS after her D&C. She had to pay more because she's not a citizen of Singapore. She said her BF was there to meet her and stayed with her till she left for the Philippines.
"Your BF was there? So he knows? What did he say?" I was surprised.
"He met me there for the operation. Yes, he knows and he offered to help with the expenses. Sabi ko i have enough money naman, nakunsensya nga ako eh actually he wanted for us to keep the baby ready na naman daw sya maryones eh chinito ang Dindo, Amerkano ang fafa ko, maryones! Gulong malupet yon! So I just told him I'm not ready yet."
"Hmm... You didn't tell him the truth?"
"I did, told him before I left for Singapore. He said since it happened before kame officially naging kame, he can deal with it." Then se added, "He'd be ok daw naman if i want to keep it, I said never talaga!" He is one amazing man!
"Ok, next time padlock mo keps mo!" I chided her jokingly.
"Ay di na po ako uulit! Sa kanya na lang if ever." I asked her about her reproductive system, she said the doctor told her everything is ok so far, ovaries and uterus seem fine. She went on telling me how hard it was to be naglilihi, that after her D&C she stopped burping every 2 minutes and stopped throwing up. I laughed.
Then she said, "I know, I have to carry this for as long as I live. I have to live with my decision."
"Just be careful next time," I said. "I wont berate you anymore... I hope you learned your lesson."
"I did," she said. "Grabe! Di na ako uulit!"
"Di ka na makikipag sex ever?" I grinned.
"I wont have a reason to do it again kasi di na ako magloloko. Sa BF ko na lang, he's ready na to make babies." Then she said, "Ate thank you ha."
"Thank you? Saan?" I wondered.
"Salamat at nde mo ko nipuntahan sa bahay at hinambalos ng rolled up newspaper," a chat slap.
"Sus, I don't know where you live." I added, "I won't do that... Your problems should be enough to torture you diba? Dadagdagan ko pa ba?"
"Salamat talaga. I know half of the time gusto mo ko wasiwasin pero you gave me options," she said.
"I would never do that to anyone in your situation," I assured her. She smiled at what I said but I'm sure she's smiling at herself for being lucky.

I have nothing against people who have casual sex or one night stands or premarital sex. I have dear friends, male and female friends, who've had casual sex/one night stand to satisfy their needs and I'm comfy with that. These are my friends who are smart, witty, funny, sensible professionals, they just happen to have this need that had to be taken care of that's why they went on and did it, some are still doing it.
What are the possible consequences of having unprocted sex? Unwanted pregnancy for one, sexually transitted disease, and some other form of physical trauma (I have another friend whose vagina had to be sewn up because her vagina was too small for the guy's penis but she just let him do it anyway). What are the possible dangers of having one night stands or casual sex? Physical abuse, sexual abuse, indiscreet partners who put you in a bad light.
Not that I'm passing judgement but I'm wondering why 27, she's had 2 BFs and 3 sex partners in 4 months. If she had unprotected sex with someone who's not her BF (Dindo), then I'm sure she had unprocted sex with Kiko and her American BF as well. This is not counting the so called boylets she's been flirting with before she met them and the other times in between. I'm not passing judgement but it's hard to ignore something like this. Maybe she gave in to her needs and urges, true, but wait till she reaches my age! At my age you dont have needs and urges, you have NEEDS and URGES! If she can't exercise self control at 27 what more when she reaches 37? I'm 37 and I KNOW what sexual peak means, I'm so ripe I just could fall off the vine. Thank God I still haven't. I'm too scared of the consequences to just take the risk. I nearly did but I talked to a male friend who warned me that I could get physically abused, it's a possibility no one can tell. That stopped me dead on my tracks.
She's lucky, God or Fate or a higher intelligence or the universe, smiled on her and let her have this chance to correct her mistakes. She's lucky to have an understanding and loving BF, she's lucky the damage to her reproductive system could hopefully be minimal. The money she spent can always be earned by hard work. I just really hope she learned her lesson well, otherwise I would have to add a part 5 to this.


I would like to apologize and thank the people who have been very patient with me, thank you for sending your feedback/suggestions/opinions. I hope that we could all learn something from this story. We are still in the dark ages when it comes to sex and responsibility. Our country should stop being prude and start taking up measures to prevent this sort of thing from happening. Information dissemination on contraception would help, legalization of abortion is also an option but this to me is extreme. I know if we make information and contraception accessible then women won't have to resort to extreme measures like taking cytotec from some obscure botika in Quiapo or even have a wirehanger abortion. Legalizing abortion would mean eradicating clinics that are unsanitary/unhygenic and have unsafe abortion practices.
I remember this ad on CNN about abuse on women, that women are still forced to have unprotected sex. We should realize that we are all responsible for our actions. Mia knew better but she went on and did it unprotected. Ignorance is not excuse.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Sex and Consequence Part 3

The next day, the day after she sent that message, I saw Mia online and we started talking.
"Ate any news on the hilot?" she asked.
"Ay wala, 90s pa kasi yon eh and I don't know where my friend is anymore. Why don't you ask students? I'm sure there is someone who knows someone. You want to talk? May free line ka ba dyan?"
"Ay wala po. Punta na lang ako sa Singapore next week."
"Bakit sa SG? Ano meron don?" I asked.
"Don ako magpapaopera, legal abortion :-( don. May iba bang option na safe?"
"Ano sabi ng BF mo?"
"He doesn't know about this."
Ok, I told myself. "Bakit di mo sinabi?"
"I don't want him to worry."
"Hay naku! Don't you think he has every right to know?"
"Here's the thing ate--"
I cut her with, "That's his kid too! Is he still married?"
"--This thing happened before he came here... Hindi sya ang tatay, " she added.
Hmm... Interesting... "Ayus! Si Kiko?" I said that thinking that they met August last year and surely, Kiko is the type of guy who wouldn't let a chance pass.
"But we weren't officially on before sya pumunta dito eh, I wanted to wait till we met," referring to her BF.
"Well nandyan na yan. I'll ask around. When do you plan to go to SG?"
"Monday or Tuesday next week. The cost will be $800 to $1,000."
"Why don't you try Bangkok? I heard mura at maganda ang healthcare facilities and services don," I suggested.
"Wala ako nakita don eh." Then she asked, "Do you think I can still get pregnant?"
I wasn't sure how to answer this so I quoted the doctor, "Ang sabi sa akin nakakanipis ng matres at ovaries yung gamot, possible complications yan. Pero kung maayos ang abortion mo wala sigurong magigin problema. Basta walang infection or blood poisoning."
"Syet! And I had 17... Do you think may remedy pa ito? Magkakaanak pa kaya ako nito?"
I was quiet.
Then she said, "Kagagahan ko kasi eh! I'm willing to spend just to make sure nothing would go wrong anymore. Sayang ang lahi ng BF ko eh. Hehehe."
I laughed. "Bruha ka! Next time magiingat ka! Hahaha!"
"Hay naku ate pagnalaman mo kung sinong tatay baka mainis ka!"
Uh-huh... "Sino? Si Kiko?" He was the only logical choice since he was the BF who came here a few months before she met her American BF.
"It's Dindo. Syet! It only happened once, nadale pa ako!"
I was floored! "You had unprotected sex with Dindo?? What if he's sick??" Dindo actively "dates" a lot of women. He was dating a girl named Annie before he met Mia, and I'm sure he was able to get jiggy with her because he was able to convince her to use her credit card to buy once of those high tech Sony Ericsson phones on installment. Well, Annie may not have gotten pregnant but she's baon sa utang because of that cellphone he never paid. "Di mo alam kung saan nagsawsaw ang etits non!"
"Pati yon papacheck ko na rin. Syet!"
"When do you plan to tell your BF this?" This is the trickiest part, telling her BF.
"I'm planning on telling him before I leave for SG. I might bend the truth a little."
I was adamant, "Are you sure that's a good idea? You could just tell him it happened before you met him. That's the truth anyway. Tell him when it's already over."
"If I bleed now should I still go to SG?"
"Well if that happens then go straight to the ER, that's the break you've been waiting for. D&C ka na nila agad dito."
"I'm hoping for the best. Prayers katapat nito."
"You have to accept the consequences of your actions," I added.
"I know ate. Thanks ha."
I don't know why she thanked me, "Sus! Wala yon. Just keep intouch. I'll still ask around."
"Sobrang bait mo sa akin."
"Basta be good na!"

This was our last real conversation. Days later she asked me if it's possible for her to just approach a doctor and tell the doctor what she has done so he would hopefully do a D&C on her. I asked my doctor cousin and her hubby and they were shocked with her story. My doctor cousin said, "If after 17 pills and she didn't bleed then the baby is meant to be born. You can't mess with nature." In effect she wouldnt do anything to terminate the pregnancy even after 17 pills. My other cousin said she should get the abortion since the baby will definitely be born with major defects but her sister was firm on the idea that Mia should go on with it, she should face the consequences. So I texted Mia and told her that I don't think there is a doctor who would be willing to say he/she will give her an abortion.
The next msg I got from her was a few days later. She said she will be going to SG that week and she needed $1,000 for her trip but she can only spare $500 because her brother would need the money for tuition. I wasn't able to respond to that message, she sent this 2 weeks ago.

Haven't heard from her since.

(To be continued...)

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Sex and Consequence Part 2

I told her that I would try help her find some sort of solution for her. She thanked me in her last msg. I went online and tried to find this chatmate of mine who is a med student, specializing in Obstetrics. I told him about the situation and he freaked! He said 2 tablets would have sufficed a sure bleeding, 17 was suicide. I asked him how can that be suicide when cytotec will just induce contractions. He tried to explain it the best way he could but he was kinda "emotional" already. He said something about the pills making the ovaries manipis and that the effects of this are damaging long term. I asked him if she could still get pregnant someday and he said 70% chance she would never get pregnant anymore. Wow!

Before I proceed with my story, I would like to profile her and do a bit of backtracking. Let's call her Mia. She's around 27, single. She is smart and witty and funny and flirtly. There is nothing outstanding about her looks but somehow she carries herself provocatively especially when she chats that's why a lot of guys get really interested in her, she is what some men call "uncomplicated and easy to get along (with)." It's the sum total of her traits that make her sexy, she has a sexy mind and of course a sexy body.
Around late December or early January, I caught her online. I asked her about Kiko who arrived August to meet her. She met her in a chatroom and they got really close. There were also other guys who were interested in her but it was Kiko who won her heart because he pursued her and he did everything to meet her. Unfortunately, it didnt work out between her and Kiko, she said. Kiko decided to go back to his ex wife (yeah right what a lame excuse, he's the typical asshole who got disappointed when he saw her or just got what he wanted from her). I told her I was sorry to hear that. She said she wasn't because she met someone else.
"I met him at this site you recommended. He's an American and he serves the
US Army. He's based in Europe right now."
"That's good."
"He came here last November and he even got to talk to my parents. He plans
to take me to Europe next year, we could go meet my parents there. Would you
like to see his picture?"
She sent the pic to my email. Lo and behold! The pic shows him lying on his back and her ontop of him. "Aba, magkapatong sila! Eh di full tank ka na naman?"
She goes, "Di naman ate, di naman ako bumigay agad."
"You waited 1 hour bago ka bumigay?"
She responded, "45 minutes naman." And we both laughed.

(To be continued)


I wish I could tell the story in one sitting but the story is really long and I have lots of chores to do. Huhuhu! I hope you dear people would be patient with me. This story gets really interesting!

Monday, January 17, 2005

Sex and Consequence

2 weeks ago I got a text message from a number not in my cellphone memory. The message goes like this:
ate alam kong pagagalitan mo ko pero m desper8 na talaga. me alam kang hilot? nde pang pilay ha? :-(
I thought this was a joke at first. I asked who she is and she identified herself. Then I asked her if she had her self tested and she said she did, 7 weeks pregnant according to her Ob-Gyn friend. She took a lot of medications yet nothing has happened. This makes terminating the pregnancy her best option. I told her the hilot of my friend is in Laguna and she had her abortion around 94 so I have no way of tracking down the hilot, my friend went to Canada after the abortion. She begged me to ask around because she really can't keep the baby, she took 17 cytotec pills and she hasn't bled at all. One only needs 2 to terminate pregnancy.

To be continued...

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Am I the Jealous Type?

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