Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Where to?

San ba ako punta? Dyan lang sa tabi tabi, soul searching kuno kse nawawala yata kaluluwa ko. Hehehe.
I need some time off from my responsibilities here at home and hopefully I'd be able to take care of myself this time.
I feel that I've been misjudged by my family and they have trivialized my role and responsibilities. I'm thinking if I leave for a while, they would see what I've done for this family. Not that I'm seeking praise from them, just a simple form of acknowledgement lang, not even a thank you. Some people have conveniently dumped their responsibilities on me and now I'm taking crap for it. Sheesh!
I also need this time off to figure out what's really happening to me and hopefully I'd know what to do with my life. I think I have used my responsibilities at home as a convenient excuse not to pursue my goals, or maybe use it as a reason to fail at my personal plans. I'm slowly starting to see clearly now, I should give ME the time.
Lastly, this vacation will be some sort of risk taking exercise for me, I'm taking another leap of faith. This is kinda unnerving for me since I've done this before and I fell flat on my face. I had a hard time picking up the pieces of my life for a while. I hope that this time around, I'd have something waiting to catch me when I jump. It's scary because I might get stood up again but if I don't take the risk now then how would I know, right? I'm 37, I need to know what my options are. If I stay at home all day, nothing good will come out of it. Blessings won't fall from the roof and onto my lap. Tapos na mourning ko, I've washed my face and combed my hair, now I'm ready to face the world again.
Thanks Mari, Arrow-N and G. Hope the best for you guys too. Till next blog entry!

21 comments:

mari said...

if i'm in your shoes, i'll take the risk. that's what life is all about, risks. get out of your shell. you don't want to look back 5-10 years from now and say to yourself that i should've done this and that and so on. go ahead sis, i wish you well. :)

Tanggero said...

GO GO GO!
teka, bat ba boracay nasabi ko kanina...di ko alam may pupuntahan ka pala.
goodluck!!!

fionski said...

Thanks Mari for your support! =)

Taggerooo!! Mustasa? Psychic ka ba? Hehehe!

Cerridwen said...

you just have a good time :) i love you....

fionski said...

G thank you. You keep me grounded! Maloloka ako kung wala ka! Hehehe! Love you too!

masterbetong said...

Pwede ba akong sumama jan?!

Kidding aside, I remembered what my Physics teacher used to tell us, ang kaibahan daw ng mga inventors sa ibang tao ay marunong silang mag-take ng risk. Every failure taught them on how not to do it.

Ciao` enjoy ur "vacation". Pasalubong ko ha....

watson said...

Ate Fionskiiiii !!! Where art thou Ate Fionski?

I wish you the best in your endeavours.

Pepe said...

spending time alone is healthy...

An said...

good luck, ate fionz.... pwede mo ba akong ipasok sa bagahe mo?

Huseng Busabos said...

Susme, serious ka rin pala minsan - Whatever you are planning to do - go and have fun. You don't want to ask yourself later the question "What if?"----

Here is a quote by George Bernard Shaw that I think fits your situation perfectly - "A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing."

Cheers and remember to have fun! Lot's of it!

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Playwrighter said...

All the best to you. I suggest you memorize the following and recite it thrice each day to keep your focus on yourself and your personal well-being during this quality-time endeavor:

"I can frighten people with my mind. I can tear their souls out with the diamonds in my eyes. I have found my rage and I am willing to use it. I can juggle three basketballs. I can write faster than I can think. I'm convinced I can defend Microsoft, single handedly, in an argument against dozens of the unhinged. I've invented my own passions, and have faced my fears. I confuse courage with desperation, and lattes with cappuccinos.

All the best!

Dale Andersen
http://playwrighter.blogspot.com/

metal said...

hello ms fionski...throw those troubles away and start packing those swimsuits. i think it is time to reward yourself.

enjoy life....

MommyBa said...

I know exactly how you feel. Mukhang pareho tayo ng predicament. How I wish I can also have that ME time that I've long been wanting to have. Pero mukhang nauna na yun kaya eto ako sa situation ko ngayon.

Anyway, go for it sister. I'm pretty sure you'll put that time to good use.

Take care! *hugs*

techguy said...

papasundo ka ba sa airport, saan bang airport...good luck

HanAgiRL said...

Go! sometimes that's what we need. or what everyone needs. go away and do some thinking. step out of the picture for a while. Easier to think and breathe that way. Hope all will be well for you Fiona :) Keep praying :)

CHICAY said...

ate dont forget my pasalubong.. :) ma miss kita ill txt you na lamang everyday hehehe

L. Harold Heindell Tejada said...

achie, tagal yata ng retreat mo
san ka na ba?
di man lang tayo nakapagkita sa manila
balik na ko d2 sa middle east pero ewan ko parang gusto ko rin ng retreat na ginawa mo kse dami akong hindi nagawa noong bakasyon ko...
sana maging matagumapay ang mga gawain mo... ingat ka lagi... mishu!

-HAR[i]

Mec said...

girl

i just hope your trip has done its magic... and you'd be coming back with a fresher perspective :)

russ.รข„¢ said...

i wish you the best fiona! :) cheer up. and smile!

Cerridwen said...

miss you miss you miss you miss you miss you :(