Monday, January 05, 2009

Happy New Year!

I am taking stock of my life. I have stepped back and look back at my life in 2008. I am not to be critical with myself or what has happened to me but I have to understand what has happened to me, how would I have changed things, what I have accomplished, what still needs to be accomplished. I have to remind myself of what I want to do, what I love to do, what is important to me, how can I improve myself.

Part of the process of taking stock of my life is my taking a leap of faith. I know in my heart that what I just did a few days ago is a great leap of faith. I still do not know what will happen to me in the end but I know I'll be able to accomplish a few but important things or tasks that I have been putting off due to time constraints.

One of the things I need to do is finish mourning for my loss (my Lola) and get my "closure." I feel I am still in mourning. People see me smiling or being funny but of course, they do not see me when I am serious or alone. I do not expect anyone to understand me, I expect people to respect my desire to be left alone for a while, while I go through my process.

I came across this site about taking a leap of faith. I Googled "take stock of your life" and found Take a Leap of Faith in 2008. Good read.

1 comment:

Buge said...

Happy new year Fions!

I'm so sorry to hear about your lola. My deepest condolences